Cheryl

2010-11-15T00:32:00.000+08:00

Prolly , its time to switch to tumblr.

2010-10-10T21:28:00.002+08:00

It's been a month, too many things happened. Been partying for the past few weekends though I already told myself to maintain.Well, at least I'm not those really hardcore who goes to club every Wednesday, Friday&Saturday. Partying on weekends help me to destress (Y) Partying's good, not getting myself wasted, and I'm glad that my intake of alcohol level increases already (: I understand the pain of taking care of someone when the person is drunk, its painful and tiring. Especially if you're taking care of a person who loves to run a lot. I feel the pain now, and I'll never let myself breakdown ever again. What doesnt kill me, makes me stronger. Its either partying, or chilling/drinking on every weekends, spells LOVE. I think I'm getting back on track in life. No point holding onto it. I deserve better. Dear October, please be kinder to me. I think I'm doing good so far, so just let things be the way they are now.

2010-09-18T18:12:00.001+08:00

You're the one always bidding goodbye without thinking how badly the damage can caused to me.

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From this very day, you live your way, and I'll live mine. Prolly even earlier , you already live in your own life. There were many failed attempts of happiness in this period, but I know deep inside my heart, I never let you go. There isnt such thing as fairytale story, or fairytale ending. You choose to let go of us, I know. Cause I ain receiving texts from you, you ain calling me anymore. Thinking back this whole period us getting together was never an easy task. We fought, we bickered we quarreled. We know that after awhile things will be back to normal. We smiled together over little things, we cried together over stupid things. We laughed together over random things. The things we been through this period, I had to admit, it was too harsh for me. I wont deny that I am at fault, but thinking back, you did wrongs too. I tried my best to change , I tried to make things work, but I guess, it really takes two hands to clap. Reading back all the old posts, looking back at all our pictures. Good memories, bad memories we shared. Happy ones , sad ones. 31st Aug, you choose to let it go. Everything come to an end. Now, you can go hit on all the girls you want. You can go wink at all the girls you want. You can go flirt w all the girls you want. Talking about moving on, prolly the one who is moving on is you. Talking about rebound, prolly the one is you. I guess I gotta get used to life without you.

It's been 18days since you left. I know this time, you're leaving me for good, you'll never return to my side anymore. I thank the people around me for being such a big love. To even those I dont really talk to. Now, our friendship is a step closer. Many loves to Juliana&Pearlyn. The one who see me cry always. No matter what my decision is, they still stood by me, and support me. To those who've been great listening ear, listening to my grumbles and all. Daniel&John. I know, pretty much weird cause we used to be complete strangers, and now. We're like communicating almost everyday. Big hugs to those who accompanied me . When they tell me " I'm just a phone call away", they really do. Just a text/ call, they tried to make themselves available. To those who care and concern every now and then, big thankyou to you too. I shall not disturb your life anymore. I cant too since now you're doing the hard way by blocking me and all.

Pearlyn&Juliana.

Thankyou for being there to watch me cry. Despite your work and all, you'll always try to keep me company so I wont start thinking about him so much. Throughout this whole period, thankyou for standing by me. Though you dont wish to see me in pain, but still even though I dont want to give him up, you respect my decision, and supported me. Thankyou for those times watching me cry, coming over to keep me company, texting w me so I wont be feeling so alone and all. Despite all the issues the adults are facing, it did not affect the close bond we have. ♥

Daniel&John.

This is damn random I know. On just a random day, we just became so close, thankyou for being my listening ears. You all must have suffered from all my grumblings and all. All my daily rantings, thankyou for trying to add in positive thoughts and distract me from other stuffs.

Now, I guess you can call other girls baby, they can call you hubby. No doubt, I still miss you and all. No doubt I still love you. This is life, if you think being like this you'll be happier, than go ahead. I'm not going to cry about every night and all. Do know, I still have you in my heart.

2010-08-22T11:30:00.000+08:00

I love you more than my life

2010-08-09T22:27:00.000+08:00

When someone talks to you almost everyday, it becomes a routine right? But then, when they stop talking to you out of nowhere…you get scared to even say anything because you feel like you will ruin something between the two of you. Can’t help but think, “what did i do wrong?”

That's what I'm feeling right now.

What did I do wrong.

2010-08-07T23:45:00.002+08:00

Dont be afraid that you'll wake me up in the middle of the night with your sms when I'm sleeping. You know I wont mind♥

2010-08-06T22:02:00.000+08:00

"Marry me"

I do. I will. I love you.

2010-08-02T21:08:00.002+08:00

Day2 my Poopy is back in Aussie. Things are like way much better now. Back to the usual, we webcammed our night time away, and like, even skype w Poopy(:

Was over at Grandpa's to celebrate his 90th birthday. A lot of random people turned up, and us cousins sort of have a lil gathering. Some were trying to seduce young kids, and I even saw another of my nephew . Seeing another niece/nephew reminds me that I'm an auntie already. Spent my whole day at Grandpas. Came home after dinner, and was on cam w Poopy (: Ko'ed at 12 odd (:

Happier note ; Daddy approves of me&Bibi to go holiday (:
Cant wait, cant wait. Looking forward, Looking forward.

2010-08-01T19:41:00.003+08:00

Its been a day since you're back in Perth, and time seemed to pass so slowly without you here. Constantly checking on my phone, hoping for your name to appear on my screen. When I wake up. When I'm having breaks. When I wake up in the middle of the night. Before I sleep, I always wished I could receive your texts like the past. Knowing that you'll be thinking of me all day & all night. Having people to ask me "hey, where's your boyfriend? Why never come?" Sucks pretty much, cause it makes me go and think about it. If you're right here, I'll bring you here, I'll show you to the world that I'm proud and glad that you're my boyfriend. I'm happy to have you by my side. Its back to days seeing you on webcam everyday. My lil niece the hamster face, when I saw her today. She asked me " Where's your boyfriend " Its back to reality. I gotta survive another 4/5 months with you in Perth. I miss you so bad, so much that I dont know what to do. Time ticks a lot slower, without you here. I want you, smiling for me. Always.

2010-07-31T14:11:00.002+08:00

Dear You,

Its been 7hours since you're out of my sight. From the moment at the airport, I told myself not to cry cause you wont want to see me in tears. From the moment I met up w you, It gets harder to hold those tears back. Asking you those questions isn' mushy, isn't gay or what. You know that's what girls are. They like to ask such stuffs. As we walked nearer to the Immigration area, I didn't want to let you go. I just want to hug you and hold you back. I know I cant hold you back. You've got your school. You've to go back. As I watch you walking in, tears just rolled down immediately. I couldn't bear to let you go. The last hug. The last kiss. When will I be able to feel that hug, that kiss from you again. I stared at my phone, looking at our picture. I know you'll be back. I hope I'm the reason you're coming back. I tried to be strong, I tried to learn to be tougher, but it obviously fail. So used to having you here with me for this short while, and now, you're back in Perth again. 7 hours, it felt as if its damn long.

I miss everything about you. I miss hugging you. I miss kissing you. I miss us holding hands. I miss us watching movies. I miss being in your arms. I miss teasing you. I miss us quarreling. I miss us being happy. I miss lying next to you. I miss having you in my arms. I miss going out with you.

I know we'll still webcam, but things are different. It will be feeling different already. At least I'm glad I watch you walking in, rather than the last time, I didn't even get to. Your last few smses to me, asking me to eat well, and concentrate. I'm trying to eat, but it seemed like ever since you went back the very first time, I've been losing my appetite since then. Maybe this time is even worst than the last time. The morning's gone. Now its the noon. I want to hear your voice baby. I wonder when will I be able to be lying next to you again.

You know I'll never love you any less despite the way you treat me is differently from the past. I'll not give up in whatever I do, including this love. Why does this feel as if its the first time you're leaving my side? I been through it before. I was still fine when I came home. As the clock ticks, I couldn't lie to myself anymore. I missed you this bad baby. You know I would still love to receive your letter though you never really like writing but you still wrote to me the past few months? I won't want to walk the path we walked together before. I want you to walk with me. We walked from interchange to my home.

You know how much I love you, and how much I miss you.

Love,

2010-07-31T13:21:00.002+08:00

TUESDAY&WEDNESDAY

Stayed at home the whole day, only until close to evening time Bibi came over and dinnered with my family. After the dinner we caught The Sorcerer's Apprentice together. It's something like the Lightning Theif, but its good (: At least its way better than Ong Bak 3. Seriously, Ong Bak is a waste of time ;x After the movie something happened -not to be mentioned - Then Bibi came over to my place to stayover. Woke up like around noon time, and send Bibi to interchange. Headed back home, tried to sleep but couldnt ;( So waited for Bibi to get home, cammed and watched him to bed.

THURSDAY

Screwed my hair the night before, so I woke up early to have a haircut and gotten lunch for brother. Down to Vivo to meet up w Bibi, and we went walking around. Gotten tickets for Tekken, and its not a bad movie (: After the movie headed down to CityHall cause Bibi meeting his friends at CityHall and I'm meeting Pearlyn at CityHall. Sat at Starbucks while waiting for his friends to come. After they arrive, I left to wait for Pearlyn. Supposed to go dinner, but both of us ended up shopping. Well, it burns a hole in my pocket, but it gave me temporary happiness. At least its good. Headed home to change out, and went for a walk with Pearlyn, finding food cause hungry ;x

FRIDAY

Met up w Bibi around like 5. Bibi came down to Tampines, gotten tickets for StreetDance. It was an okay movie. While waiting for the movie, we went walking around, changing the stud for Bibi, looking at people dancing away at the arcade. Bibi gotten himself a jacket (: The hoodie that he's been looking for (: Then Bibi walked me home, figured out that walking is so much faster than taking bus. In the end, I accompanied Bibi back to MRT station. As I was on the bus, some guy missed the handle bar, and hit my head. Stared at him, he just awkwardly walk away and laugh. Not a word of sorry ASSHOLE.

SATURDAY
Woke up around 6am. Over to Airport to meet Bibi.Supposed to breakfast, but din eat much. Accompanied Bibi and send him off. Sigh, he shoould be reaching Perth soon. I'm already missing him, HOW.

2010-07-27T12:13:00.002+08:00

I know its love. The moment you hugged me tight in your arms, giving me kisses. Whispering " Baby, iloveyou more than life. That's how much I love you. I only love you, and I only want you my beautiful "

2010-07-27T00:36:00.003+08:00

I swear my face getting rounder ;( Woke up early in the morning like around 10odd by Mum's text, thinking it was alarm clock. Sucks much cause it woke me up and I couldn't get back to bed. I stoned to myself, and while waiting for Bibi to wake up, having the mood. I vacuumed the floor, I mopped the floor. I clean the tables, I washed the clothes. Boredness kills to the extend I even washed the toilets and the dishes . Tick tock, at 3pm Bibi woke up. He slept for like 14hours cause he wasnt feeling well. Preparing and while waiting for each other, we cammed (: Left house around 4odd, and meet Bibi at Bugis (: Supposed to meet Amanda at Bugis, but changed of plan. Decided to settle for dinner, so went over to Pastamania. Bibi, I'm sorry for the sudden mood killer ;( Trained to PayaLebar to meet Amanda to take my clothes, and bumped into Jason. Headed to Tanjong Pagar after that making our way to Screening Room.

Settled for Lychee Martini as usual weee (: Its fucking awesome, and I'm loving it much. The atmosphere is awesome. Had a few glasses of Lychee Martini (: Over to the kopitiam nearby to have chicken rice (: Then after that head back home (: Movie w Bibi tmr (:

2010-07-26T13:44:00.002+08:00

Its already the 26th, and its a Monday. I'm not looking forward to the last day of the month, the 31st. I'm not looking forward to Saturday. I dont want to go through the whole cycle again, but I know there isnt any choice for it. I just have to go through it. Breaking down last night, and I thought to myself, wondering whats the reason. As I stared at those stars hanging on my ceiling, I finally knew the reason to the breakdown. I missed you. I dont want you to go back. I wished you could just enroll yourself into a school here, and dont have to go back . You came back in just short 3weeks, and you'll be gone for a long 4/5months. When will we ever meet again. You kept constantly telling me " Please dont cry at the airport" You know, its never easy to hold back those tears. No matter how hard I tried to hold back, it will , it will still roll down the cheeks. I've to learn to be strong all over again. I've to go through that process of getting used to you not physically here w me all over again. I've to go through the crying for nights all over again. I know, you'll be back. I know, but thats at the end of the year ;( I used to look forward to the end of each month. Not now, I'm so not looking forward to it.

I'm gonna miss all the bickerings again .

I'm gonna miss stabbing you .

I'm gonna miss hugging you .

I'm gonna miss lying next to you .

I'm gonna miss your kisses .

I'm gonna miss us going to places for food .

I'm gonna miss everything .

I survived 4 months without you physically here. &Now, I've to try to survive it again. Its not easy. Its never easy. I told myself earlier " This time I wont cry, cause I'm preparing for it " No, I'm deceiving myself. I wont be okay. I wont I know.

Bring me along, or stay, will you?

I'm hating 21st Feb, and 31st July.

2010-07-25T17:07:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 9TH MONTHSARY PUMPKIN BIBI(:

Today's our 9th monthsary ! Bibi woke up at close to 12 midnight last night, and we spent an hour camming before we head to bed (: Woke up around like 9am this morning, prepared myself and after that heading down to Bugis to meet Bibi for our breakfast (: There were a lot of people luh, cause of some Marathon Run Thingy. Shared the breakfast and after that we went walking around looking for Bibi's stuffs for the dinner. Gotten it at Domanchi , and after that went to pierce ear. Walked around Bugis Junction and also to Bugis Street, but nothing caught my eye ;( I wanna get a bag :( Went to check out the Watsons for some stuffs, and headed down to Vivo. Tested out some stuffs, and over to check things at Guardian. Bussed down to Bibi's place to get my stuffs (:

Bibi passed me a bag of stuffs and tadah ! Its the small plushies ! Mummy was suggesting me to try something new, hanging those plushies up on my ceiling like how I hanged the stars up (: &Yes, the Chanel Earrings & Necklace, from Bibi for our 9th monthsary ! Thankyou Bibi (: At this rate, you're spoiling me, teehee (: Your spoilt princess always ♥ Headed back home while Bibi go get his hair cut and get ready for the wedding dinner (:

What matters most to me, is you. You light up my life, changing me into a better person. I truly did enjoyed myself the past few days bibi, and soon you'll need to go back and continue your 2nd semester (sucks much). You make me the happiest girl in the world, the most blissful one. When you held my hands tight, you told me "I'll never let you go" Bibi, I know, I know you're the one. Often we had quarrels, but I'm glad we pulled it through. Best thing in a relationship is when both quarrels, they're still together as a couple and not off to lead their own single life. Iloveyou Bibi. Only your hands fits w mine. Only your lips locks w mine. Only you have the key to my heart. Iloveyou, Happy 9th Monthsary bibi (:

2010-07-24T21:24:00.004+08:00

Busy day today. KO'ed at like close to 2 this morning , and woke up at around like 6am. Prepared and headed to Changi Air Base Family Open House. A total waste of my time, I was super pissed off ;x Gotten harshbrowns on my way there, and having to wait for 15mins for the shuttle bus-.- Arrived there to only find out that we can actually wear slippers (pissed off #1), and having to surrender our phones when after that I found some people using camera phone (pissed off #2). The weather was so hot, and it was so boring (pissed off #3). Imagine how sucky is it, and Bibi wasnt awake at that time yet ;( Everything ended like around 12odd, and Uncle sent us back. I got so bored and thought I'll be early so I went to take a train to PasirRis, den head to Promenade to meet Bibi. Being late, and that idiot say he wanna stab me *stab him back*

Headed to Singapore Flyer, and it was rather normal. But had fun teasing Bibi (: I love teasing him, teehee ;D Wanted to go get green tea ice cream for Bibi but there wasnt any, so we went to have a walk at Millenia Walk and we figured out that there wasnt anything so we decided to head to Chinatown cause Bibi wants to have his KOI. When we were in the train, this lady started talking to me asking for directions and suddenly for a moment, I felt as if my chinese sounds so cock up HAHA. To our disappointment, there was a long queue at KOI and Bibi decided not to have it. Walked around OG People Park for a few rounds, looking at tattoos and Bibi's shoes. Din get anything in the end, so we headed to Newton for early dinner (: Had prawn mee , orlua and stingray . Awesome much, sucha pity that I became a small eater ;( Trained back after that. Epic moment. When I was in the train w Bibi, this girl wanted to stand up and offer me her seat. I was in a shock when her friend like pulled her back. She somehow pointed to me, and the sign for the pregnant lady seat and her friend like some sort of tell her something like I wasnt pregnant . I swear it was fucking awkward, so I decided to alight w Bibi at DhobyGhaut . Catched the next train back. Wanted to jog, but decided not to cause I was pretty lazy ;x In another like 90mins, its me&Bibi's 9th ! (: Bibi said he have a lot of stuffs to pass to me, so much that its enough to fill my queen-size bed (: Bibi's sick and sleeping now, but he promise to wake up at 12 (: Sigh, and Bibi's gonna head back to Aussie soon ;(

Happier note , Bibi's gonna come over and stay for a night (: I'm gonna see him later on cam . Gonna meet Bibi for mac breakfast tmr (: and a lil shopping. Cant spend the whole day cause Bibi gotta attend wedding dinner at night ;( Meow.

I miss you, my Pumpkin Poopy Bibi Hubby (:

2010-07-22T21:23:00.002+08:00

Its a Thursday and right now its only like 3days more to our 9th monthsary ! Met up w Bibi at TanjongPagar to get some stuffs done. Then we headed to Plaza Singapura. Feeling like a little hungry, we decided to dine at Xin Wang Cafe until our movie starts (:

Had har gaw and century egg porridge. The har gaws are like better than Taste Paradise ;x And they're definitely cheaper as well ;x We brought our bubble tea in and was told not to drink our drinks cause no outside food&drinks allowed-.- Sucks much cause my Ice Blended melted ;( Booked our ticket the night before, so we went to collect our tickets (:

Caught Ong Bak 3 and it wasnt that great. It was more of like a waste of time. The theatre was damn empty, and the show like okay only. So if people are deciding to watch Ong Bak 3, strongly advise you people not to watch ;x Its a waste of money. After the movie we headed to Bugis to just nua around, and after that Bibi send me home (: Came home and changed out, den out to jog w Pearlyn (: Jog until like interchange den a round back. Its good that my knees can take the pain, but it still hurts. I only manage to stop like twice throughout the whole run, considering good as I have not been jogging (: Had a short talk after that , and she's suggesting to go to Bali like next year or something for massage (:

On a happier note, Bibi and I are planning to go Thailand for shopping at the end of the year. With fingers crossed my parents allow (: weeee.

2010-07-21T17:08:00.003+08:00

Met up with Bibi yesterday (: We googled for the dim sums, and decided to head over to Vivo's Dragon Gate for dim sum. To our disappointment, they ceased their business until further notice. We looked up&down for it and it wasnt open ;( Sadface so we went to Mac instead. After the meal we walked around Vivo&HarbourFront as our show was at 2.10pm. Wanted to get earpiece so we went over to ToyBox if I'm not wrong. They sell a big variety of stuffs in there. We spent a good time inside, walking around the shop for at least 3 times cause there were really a lot of stuffs to look at. After I clear all my phone bills and recontract my phone, I'm gonna go there to get the iphone stuffs cause its really damn cheap ! We went roaming to other shops but they dont have awesome stuffs to look at, so we went to catch our movie, Inception (:

It was a rather confusing movie. I keep getting confused during the movie, but its a good one. Bibi was nice to keep telling me if its reality or dreams cause I dont quite get it and he has to tell me ;x The movie ended like close to 5pm, den bibi and I both headed home. Went over to Starhub to return the cable vision stuffs, and headed home.

&Today, woke up like early 10am to go to PasirRis to get Bibi's stuffs. Trained down to Ion to meet up w Bibi, and we went over to Taste Paradise for dim sum (:

We tried the dumpling shark fin, century egg porridge, prawn&scallop cheechongfun, custard bun, and har gaw. It was a so-so dish only, wasnt really that great. The pastry from the custard bun makes me damn full. I would love to try the Red Star Restaurant some other time. Just these little things, and it cost like $60+ and I doubt its worth it ;x They even charge for the ice water, and service charge was like $10+ ;x After the meal Bibi wasnt feeling well due to yesterday's rain, so we headed home. Came home and did some housework, I'm still thinking if I should go manicure, or go for a jog.

Might be going for movie again tmr, den to newton for dinner weee (:

I love spending time like this with you. Whenever I'm with you, I know I've nothing to fear, because you'll be right here protecting me, iwurvechu.

2010-07-19T23:33:00.002+08:00

Awesome Day.

Had a long day today with my bibi (: He texted me at 5 odd in the morning , and our day starts at around 12odd in the afternoon (: Woke up in the morning prepared and head down to Harbour Front to meet up w Bibi (: We were supposed to go to Mac for lunch cause Bibi wanted to try the nuggets and I was craving for the nuggets, but it was full. Subway was our next choice but they had a long queue, so in the end, we decided to head over to Sakae Sushi for our lunch (:

We're small eaters so we did not really ordered a lot. Gotten salmon, softshell crab & salmon don. The salmon's like damn nice (: The crab was good except the part where the egg tasted a lil bitter and I did not really like it . Their service wasnt that great. Like at the counter, the lady was talking to another customer happily, and like we had to wait some time before we can make any payment and get out of it. Wanted to go to POSB to get our stuffs done but there isnt any in Vivo area. Went to get our food, and we caught Predators at GV (:

{Predators}

The movie was good, just that the ending would have been better if they manage to get out of the planet. Instead, it was another group of people being chosen to fight with the predators. After the movie, we headed down to Cine cause we heard that there were free tickets from his brother. Went to all 7-11 but all sold out. Thank god we saw a newspaper stand, and the uncle still had a lot of it so we gotten two (: Went to Cathay and caught two movies straight. First up was Snow Prince , and next was Hot Tub Time Machine.

{Snow Prince}

{Hot Tub Time Machine}

Hot Tub Time Machine was a good laugh. We like walked out of theatre 6 and rushed to theatre 2 for our movie (: The show ended like close to 8 . Bibi and I were hoping to look for dim sum but I guess they are only sold in lunch time. Over to Taka, and it was a disappointment cause I wanted dim sum ;( Bibi suggested going to Crystal Jade and get those xiao long baos. The noodle I had, it looked so little, but to my surprise, its actually a lot. Like really, I couldnt even finish the food.

After dinner, Bibi trained me back to CityHall and we went our own ways from there cause if he's gonna send me home, it will be damn late for him and I wont even know if there's bus for him. Had a fun day with Bibi, rushing to different places to catch a movie. I love spending time with you Bibi, you're my everything. I wurve chu (: Gonna have a good rest tomorrow, and wake up to call the person up for our products, and off to meet Bibi for lunch and most likely we're gonna catch Inception (:

2010-07-17T23:32:00.001+08:00

You are, my sweetest drug. The one that my heart beats for.
Iloveyou,wuishin ♥

2010-07-08T10:46:00.002+08:00

ALOHA. Been a long time since I come and update this little space of mine. In another like let's say 53 hours, and baby will be back here with me ! Cant wait for him to be back, and go for our short gateaway. Tons of things to be done when baby's back. Like shopping and all . And finally, hes back after like 4months odd ! Gonna jump on him and give him a teddy bear hug at the airport weeeee !

Been doing what I always wanted to do the past few days. I've done my waxing , at a discounted price (thankyou!). Also, doing my nails also at a discounted price (thankyou!). Lastly, my rebonding and dye-ing my hair at a discounted price too !( thankyou!). My hair supposed to be cuperous blonde, but it turns out like no difference from my previous hair colour. I'm a happy girl now cause I've got all the things done !

Flu virus caught up with me again ;( With a fever of 38.3 degree last night, thank god this morning when I wake up, the fever subside, and now its 37.6 degree. At least better than nothing. For once, I slept early last night cause I was uber sick, like KO'ed around 9odd. When one's sick, everything comes in a package. There's body aching, with runny+block nose, cough+sorethroat. I hope I'll recover soon. Thank goodness I still had the medicine, and I hope I'll get well before baby's back !

Okayy, gotta rest now. Feeling drowsy

2010-06-15T23:40:00.002+08:00

Because its been the longest time since I last felt your hands.

The longest time since I last felt your kiss.

The longest time since I last felt your hug.

The longest time since I last felt your touch.

I'm missing you everyday. Its just today, prolly its already reaching its limit. I cant help it. The song, it helps those tears to roll down quicker than before. Then I knw, I wasnt a strong afterall. It was never easy being strong. Its been 3months odd since you went over, and soon you'll be back. Come back soon baby, Im missing you badly, like crazy.

2010-06-13T22:41:00.000+08:00

HAPPY ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY BABYGIRL
SEEYOU SOON FOR SHOPPING, EATING, AND ANYTHING.
WITH LOVE

2010-06-12T14:31:00.002+08:00

I always wanted to blog, but whenever I reach this blogging space, my mind just go blank. Its like everything I want to type out is being erased from my memory. Am I aging or what ? Life's been normal just that lately, prolly due to the doing of housework and all (and yes, I do housework one pleaseee) is draining all my energy out. My journey in my life for the month of June been good so far. No hiccups in anything, okay prolly almost everything. Relationship wise is doing good, baby's having his exams soon, and he'll be back in less than 30days. I'm looking forward for that moment, that's about it (: Each time I come online, the only thing that I'm looking forward to is to see him on cam. Sadly due to his exams, he needs to stay away from his com as far as possible, as long as possible. He has self discipline unlike me ;( I'm one lazy girl who complains and rant a lot, yet doing nothing. OKay, I did do something so I'll rant lesser but it wont really help. Been feeling shit the past few days. Flu been visiting me at unearthly hour. Been randomly feeling cold, and the next moment I'm perfectly alright.

I'm beginning to pick up bits and pieces of my life. I need to learn how to manage my time. To be able to go out, and at the same time, to do the housework. Been feeling so restless and i dont know if its due to lack of sleep. Which I think it highly impossible cause I've been sleeping rather early comparing to last time I slept at like 3 /4 am in the morning.

My brother who often stay up late, told me that I sleep talk. Shit or what? It was one random night he was playing the PSP. I woke up at 1 odd in the morning
Me " Baby (I call my brother Baby), can you please keep the balloon for me"
My bolster fell off from the bed, I picked it up as well as a deflated balloon on the floor
Him " Walau, for what? Just keep it there la . Tomorrow then keep"
Me " No, just put on your bed"
And I KOed. He found me weird. When he told me about it, I find it weird too. At the same time, laughing about it. Then at 3odd in the morning, he heard me saying " Where is the spoon. Pass it to me" I sleep talk, and sleep walk. Sucks much.

Cedric told me randomly one day that Dad allowed him and his friends to go away for a short trip, and Dad suggested Genting. So I was telling Baby (Boyfriend) that if things goes smoothly, we can go for a short trip too at the end of the year ;D Cedric and I intend to go away for a short trip too. Like maybe cruise or something. No, not those star cruise, but casino cruise-.- I was telling him maybe we should go to Batam or so. Hmm.

My money seems to be flowing out rather quickly, and I've no idea where they went to. Save me, I need to save more money!

Baby, I'm counting down to the days, you will be back in my arms.
iloveyou.

On a random note, its me & Amanda's 1st Year Anniversary tomorrow ! (: Tomorrow will be a fattening day. Going over to 2nd Uncle's place for buffet for lunch. Then over to Granny's for steamboat for dinner. Yes, which means I've to go down and help out. But I'm okay with it. I think Granny will buy tons of toufu for me cause its my favourite ;D

I think as years passed by, as I grow older, I become more sensible ;D HAHA!

2010-06-06T13:02:00.003+08:00

Now my botak boy has grown some hair ;D It's been a long time since I last did a proper update. Whenever I reached home, I'll be tied down by housework, else I'll be glued to my TV, or going for my evening jog. So many things have happened lately, and I come to realised that there isn't much that I can do. All I can do is to listen to people ranting about the problem that's all. With my baby standing with me, going through everything.

In another 7days, it'll be me & babygirl's 1 year anniversary (:
In another 20days, it'll be me & babyboy's 8th monthsary! (:

Counting down to the time you're back, loverboy.

2010-06-02T22:34:00.002+08:00

Mentally exhausted.

That pretty much sums up my life.

Too many things happening.

2010-05-23T19:39:00.002+08:00

YAY, and that special someone is Baby (: Baby called me last night (: &Our conversation ended at 12midnight as the card expired :( But its good (: I'm counting down to our 7 monthsary together (: &Also to you coming back baby, I miss you.

2010-05-18T23:51:00.001+08:00

I'm still kicking alive, prolly half life gone.

Ups and Downs, which pretty much sucks a lot.

I'm praying that things will go well, soon ;(

I'll be back to update it when the time is right, when everything's settled down.

Less chaotic.

Till then, xoxo.

I miss my baby,

and I miss my party people (:

2010-05-11T20:36:00.002+08:00

Picture was taken months back when I was at HongKong. It seemed like its been a long time I ditched my blog. By the time I come home from work, I've to do the chores, and I got really lazy to blog. The only reason that I switch on my laptop is to webcam and skype with Baby (: Its the month of May now, it means a month closer to Baby coming back to Singapore (: I cant wait to give him a bear hug and jump on him when I meet him at the airport. Hopefully he'll get a better flight timing, and not those in the middle of the night. Work's been rather boring. You can actually find me online the whole day at work, like seriously. Din even do any socialising, due to family problem. Home after work to do all the work, and sleep. Then, wake up, go to work. The routine just goes on and on. I need a long break ;( I wanna travel ;(

OKay, I'm more of looking forward for Baby to come back (: We're gonna snap tons of pictures and I'll prolly spend my whole month of July with him cause we only get to meet when hes having his holidays ;( I'm praying hard Baby can get into a school in Singapore ;(

2010-04-25T21:33:00.002+08:00

Trip to Universal Studio. It was good (: Meet up w Pearlyn at like around 10odd at Tampines Inter before heading down to Harbour Front to meet up w Winny . Took the bus, and went to USS. A virgin trip, it was good. I was hoping to get myself tanned, but somehow I guess it failed. Damn. Had tons of fun w the two girls, running around to take photos. Taking all the rides which will cause motion sickness, but its good. Facebook for more pictures, cause I'm damn lazy to blog. Have enough of fun, and its back to the reality world, back to work tomorrow. GGaahh.

2010-04-25T20:40:00.004+08:00

Happy 6th Monthsary Babyboy.

Dearest Baby boy, this post is dedicated to you. Happy 6th monthsary. We've come a long way together, and pass 2months without you here physically with me was tough. I'm pretty sure its tough for you too, but I'm still standing strong, cause I know, we're doing all these for our future. In another two months time, you'll be back here w me for your holiday break. I cant wait for the day you're back in my arms. We've already passed the "Honeymoon 3months period" but I'm glad that even after that, we're still good (: Not many people who knows their other half from club will be able to last this long. It's only 6 months together, and we've still a long way to go. It only means a month closer to our future, to our marriage ;D teehee (: Thank you for everything you've done for me. You've been the best one ever. The one who was there to listen to all my rantings. To be there for me to pick me up when I'm down. To go through with me all the hardships and everything. Whenever I'm down, you'll always be there to cheer me up. Whenever I'm about to give up on something, you'll be there to motivate me, and not give up on me. You took great care of me when I'm sick. I still remember when I was sick, you told a white lie, telling me you're in Vivo. In the end, you actually got off early from camp, gotten me soup and rose, and leaving it outside my house . For those nights, like almost every night, you'll try to stay awake, just to watch me sleep on skype/msn. It makes me feel as if you're right next to me watching me sleep. I love that feeling (: I love you for everything you've done for me. My best friend. My close friend. My boyfriend. My lover. My room mate. My hubby. My everything. I'll be waiting here for you to come back, and we'll have hell loads of fun baby. ILOVEYOU!

2010-04-22T22:58:00.002+08:00

My blog is close to rotting. Everyday I come home, I've difficulties logging into facebook, and for some reason, at random times my net lags like dog-.- Therefore, I tend to abandon my blog, but well I'm here to revive it (: Work life is effing boring. Now I've come to realise, studying is so much better. That's why I was elated when the company is going to send me for courses. It may be far from my house, but time passes faster . Tomorrow I'm down for the GEMS course Part 2, and theres going to be roleplay. Soon, its sunday <: The day I'm looking forward to. The day which marked Baby&Mine 6monthsary <:

I've been with SFL for like a month already. Two more months till my probation ends and it decides if I'm able to continue or not. I always thought working in Finance line is interesting but it turned out to be effing stressful. Imagine banking money without anyone accompanying you. Imagine if they're going to have the extension hours we'll end up going home even later. Damn, it sucks much.

Just had a nice jog at my neighbourhood. I would say I'm rather satisfied with it. I may be jogging at a slow pace and all, but I made an effort to not stop and start walking <: It's improvement. Shall start my jogging habit at like 8odd instead of the usual 6odd. It seemed like the weather been rather insane lately. Sunny in the morning, and thunderstorm in the evening. I'm clever enough to bring an umbrella now, but its a burden.

Baby's been skype'ing and msn'ing with me everyday. Okay, its like normal, but the special thing is. When I'm charging my mp3 the whole night, Baby would stay on the cam with me (: It feels as if he's right next to me, cause I had a little table to put my lappy beside my bed . Awesome feeling, I love it (: Soon, we'll hit our 6months, and Baby's gonna come back real soon (: We've already planned what to do and all, so when he's back, I'm gonna be really busy to keep him company and all(: I love you, my awesome boyfriend, my best friend my everything (:

On a happier note, its just a few more days until payday. Let those money rolling in, I need to clear tons of stuffs . On the other hand, the saddest thing is that my left calf is always hurting me for no reason, and so is my back too. Prolly cause I sit too long. I need to exercise. Working in this line, I will put on weight like really soon, damn.

ILOVEYOUPOHWUISHIN(:

2010-04-10T00:47:00.001+08:00

Happy Birthday my babyboy. My babyboy turned 20, and is a year older now. I know you'll read the blog. Now that you're a year older, be nicer to your mum. Its a sad thing that we are unable to celebrate our birthdays together. We'll celebrate it together when you're back here, both of our birthdays. We will spend our 21st birthdays together and so the rest of our birthdays. A year older and baby even when you grow old, I'll still love you. Even when we're in our 70s, I'll still love you. I'll still piggyback you. I'll still hold your hands tight and walked through all the journeys in our life. My love will never change, I'll still love you babyboy. I'm glad that you liked the present. I know you'll love it, cause when I'm doing it, I wished I received one too *hint* teehees. You're the only one who is best at putting up with my shit, talking nonsense with me. You're my best friend, my lover, my boyfriend, my hubby(: The only one my hands fit nicely with. The only one my heart skips a beat for. The only one that will make my heart flutter. The only one that has the key to my heart. Iloveyou baby. Happy 20th birthday . Yes, we're all a year older now.LOL And baby, I'm so sorry ;( On your actual day of birthday, I wasnt home to skype w you :( I was out at work in the morning, and down for my brother's stuffs in the afternoon and Yiling's chalet ;[

2010-04-07T17:52:00.003+08:00

Woke up like around 8odd despite having off today ;( Was worried that Baby couldnt wake up for his test cause I haven heard from him . Was planning to call him, when I suddenly receive my sms. Headed over to school to collect my cheque, and yes, hopefully I'll receive the money by tmr or latest saturday ^^ Trained down to Outram , and went over to NDC for my appointment. The dentist was awesome though shes an old lady HAHA. She told me to plug in my mp3, and listened to it until everything's done. 1st session of the root canal, and it hurts much. Having so many stuffs inside my mouth, one of them was ruler-.- Also, having to open and not closing it for an hour odd, sucks much. Everything was done, and headed home after that cause way too tired. Skyped w Baby, and Big thankyou to Jon's dad. Baby received the 6th month and his birthday present as well. I manage to achieve what I want from Baby. HAHA, I wanted him to be in tears when he receive it ;D

Work's fine, I guess a little hard to communicate cause they're more to the Chinese side, whereas I'm more to the English side. They're more about talking about travelling overseas and all. I'm thinking about studying part time. Taking English, and also in the course that I'm interested in.

Saving money to clear all my oustanding phone bills, as well as my credit card bills. Then, I'll save for the prada and burberry bag. Also, to save for the Aussie trip prolly at the later part of the year which is not yet confirmed.

Happier note, Its going to be a busy month in July. I cant wait for Baby to be back here with me. Gonna cherish that period of time loads.

Birthday chalet this saturday, and girls chalet coming monday. Oh my god, damn AMK to ask me to relief for them a day on Monday. Sucks much cause it means I gotta wake up damn early ;(

2010-04-03T18:57:00.003+08:00

Home on a saturday night, slowing becoming to someone who doesnt have a life. Well, I'm pretty much lazy and tired to travel. Even as I blog this very moment, I'm having a headache ;< I might KO soon, or maybe KO early tonight. So yesterday was GoodFriday, woke up around like 10odd, I guess its a habit already, is that a good thing or what? Prepared and nua'ed around till its like close to 12 and down to Kallang. Meet up w Jason and Weesoon then Weesoon had his lunch. Waited for Amanda to come over, and over to Jason's place for mahjong session [: Lucky me, manage to win back the money that I used to top up my ez link card. Game ended around like 5odd, den the 3 of us headed to have dinner while Jason left. After dinner trained to Tampines, and bussed to Changi Village for Dad's friend chalet. Went awhile only, cause it was effing boring ;x Webcammed w love, and got really tired, so I slept at like 11odd ;(

Over to work this morning. Effing packed ;( So many people wanting to open new accounts, and gotta keep phtocopying and picking up calls ;[ Knocked off around like 1odd, and lunched at work. Got home after that cause I was way too tired ;[ Mahjonged awhile w the relatives, and webcammed w Baby (:

I love to talk to you about our future together, how we want it to be. I love you,

2010-03-31T16:48:00.002+08:00

Bboy love this picture, and its his phone wallpaper[: Been so lazy to update my blog already, but still, I'll update it. Monday blues, the workplace was quiet, and it has been raining for the past few afternoons ;( Did a few transactions, and those people are really nice (: They waited patiently for me to finish doing their transactions <: Knocked off like around 530 , and bussed down to Parkway to meet up w Jonathan. Supposing Parkway, but he was late, so end up meeting him at Katong Mall. His dad came pick me up, and went over to look at some apartment. Over to his house, waited for him to print some stuffs, and off we went to Parkway (: Over to Fish&co for dinner, and I got damn full after that ;( Bussed back to Tampines, and meet up w the cousins to slack awhile before heading home to meet Bboy online, and KO'ed to bed.

Last day of the month, waking up early to check for the results. Isnt that great, but at least I cleared all my subjects, and I'm just waiting for the graduation day ! Over to work, and was pretty tired ;( Forgotten that honeyboy din have school and thought what happened to him ;x Halfday wanted to come home and rest, but I end up running errands. rrahh. Bboy at gym, and waiting for him to be back now. Another month has ended, A day closer to you coming back

2010-03-28T00:37:00.002+08:00

Approximately 35-36days ago, you left Singapore. I browsed all the photos we took together, here I am sitting down, thinking so much about you. Time seemed to past so fast, but yet it isnt getting any quicker. I still find myself crying on random nights, wanting you here. Just last night, I dreamt that you were right next to me. I woke up, it was just a dream, 2am in the morning. It felt so real, but to my disappointment when I face the reality, I patted myself to bed and KO'ed all the way. I miss us together, doing all the stupid things. I miss your every touch, every breathe, every heartbeat , your smell , and your everything. Now, the only way to keep you off the mind is to get a job. True enough I found one, but I still find myself constantly online whole day, checking your facebook to see if youre awake and everything every 10mins time or so. Seeing other couples on street, I pray so hard that you'll be right here w me, instead of somewhere far away. It seemed like you left for 35years or so. Why is June so far away from March? I want to go out , and not lock myself up in the room. This is not the usual me, but I guess. I would rather come home, and wait for you to online on certain days, and spend my night talking to you, cause time is precious.

Those times I fell sick, I wished you were right here . I'm constantly online, at the same time praying hard my phone wont flat easily, so as to stay connected w you, as close as possible. I miss you so much, you're so near yet so far. What can I do? I miss you baby;(

2010-03-27T00:39:00.002+08:00

Work's so far so good. Did my first transaction today, with the guidance. Like finally tomorrow is Saturday. My body clock adjusting damn well. Learning to wake up early, and sleeping early. So far so good, just that having a real hard time absorbing all the transactions in the bank. I really wonder how they all can do it in just split seconds. Awesome much. Some day, I want to inspire to be like them. HAHA. Just doing all the transactions so quickly. Save like quite a bit of money on transport, cause I had dad to send me to work [: Super slack, cause I actually can even go online the whole day, causing my battery to close to dying off at around evening time when I'm on the way home. Facebooking whenever I'm bored and that's about it. My trainer isnt working tomorrow, so I'm gonna be the one opening letter box, and doing the door opening as well. Stressed up, she just leave me alone lidat ;( Walked home on few occasions, yes from Bedok to Tampines, ahha. It was a fun journey though, exercise[: LOL.

Babykins is trying to be funny now. Right now I'm having PMS, hes just trying to irritate me and suan me . Work's up tomorrow, and I'm gonna have a nice rest after that. I need longer hours of sleep.

Only your hands fits nicely to mine.

2010-03-22T18:58:00.002+08:00

Officially started work at the financial branch today. Dad sent me to work cause its on the way (: Thanks dad [: Arrived work, and I sat next to the EIC. All I did was reading the whole file again this morning before lunch. It seemed like there's one in all the outlet each-.- Lunched at like close to 1pm, and headed over to Mac for it[: Was eating till the last few bites, I felt damn sick-.- Settled for lunch, and after that back to rest for awhile and all. Did notes on the file that I read, to kill time faster. Of cause, at the same time I was facebooking and msn'ing. I'm gonna bring charger for it. I think my phone battery gonna spoil ;( Knocked off at around 530, and dad fetched me [: Over to fetch mum, and back home. Gonna head down to nua w Pearlyn since I've no idea where's baby ;( Baby received my card ! [: WEE.

Yesterday was a good, as well as a bad day. I'm not gonna update much, but I want to thank LetterABCDEFG for everything yesterday. For covering my whole day expenses, and meeting me to celebrate a belated birthday. All the treats I love it. Thankyou LetterABCDEFG(:

In another few more days, its going to be the 5th month<3

2010-03-20T21:29:00.002+08:00

Seems like been a long time since I last updated my blog, but it was actually a few days back only. Been busy the past few days. Tuesday going for two jobs interviews. Both accepted me, but the 2nd one I gotta go for another interview. Went on Wednesday, and I was accepted that afternoon [: Met Amanda at IKEA for lunch/dinner, and went to get stuffs. Back to Tampines, to look for my attire to wear to work[: Immediately I got accepted, I was asked to start work the very next day (: First day was boring, I was told to read tons of files of rules and regulations-.- At the end of the day, I attended my first meeting! Was told to go for the roadshows and helped out, but in the end, I end up drawing and teaching small kids to draw. That's how slack-.-

Today, Headed to work as usual, subway w HweeYing, and after that we cabbed over to Eunos together. On my way back, train stuck at Tenah Merah simply because someone committed suicide, sucks much, causing me to stuck in the cabin. Back home quite late, and stayed home the whole day. Effing tired, but thinking of the pay, I guess its all worth it. What's more, its no longer Tanjong Pagar, its gonna be at Bedok Inter![:

Ohoh, And I received Love's birthday present for me [: ILOVECHU BABY! You'll receive yours soon, love of my life <3

2010-03-15T23:33:00.003+08:00

Turned 20, and that's pretty awful ;( Worst thing is not having Baby here, now one of my wish is to fly over to find him in April, I wonder if dad allows ;( BIG SIGH. Didnt really want to celebrate my birthday this year. So, decided to spend my day by mahjonging[: At 12 midnight sharp, Baby called from Perth♥ Conversation lasted for 40mins, pretty awesome. Not having Baby here, but hearing from him, it makes me melt . Oversea calls ain cheap hor ;x

Woke up around like 8odd 9odd by some guy asking me to head down for interview. Knowing its my birthday today, he wished me happy birthday and told me to head down for interview tomorrow. HAHA. Then back to sleep, and another later part in the afternoon another one called asking me to go down for interview.[: Awesome. While waiting for them to come over, I received another phone call. So the next few days, I'm gonna go for all the interviews. I'm actually thinking if I should go over to Resort World to work . Hmm. Mahjong'ed w Amanda Toby Alex WeeSoon. A rushing day. I had to run up and down to the market many times , worst ever. First time was to go deposit money. Second was to head down to the clinic supposing to get for grandpa his medicine. They came so Chester let them in, and they entertained themselves. Third time I headed down to get his medicine from the clinic after the doctor left. Last was to go and get dinner for grandpa. I never tried going up and down many times ;x rrahh. Mahjong'ed till halfway, and they gotten me cake. Overall I won, wanted to steamboat, but game ended late, so we end up eating zhi char. Thankyou to Amanda Toby Alex Weesoon. Especially Weesoon! Take half day off and came down to my place cause its my birthday, and Toby cancelled his movie date cause of it also. Much appreciated [: Dinnered w family, and now skyping w baby.

Big thankyou to those who wished me, in facebook, msn and phone [: Now, I'm having 2 big candles ;( Dread it much, I was telling them they should get me the small candles instead. Damnit.

Anyway, I'm 20. SIGH.

Cruise trip the day before, and it suck. Cause I slept at 4am odd, and gotta wake up at 6am odd. Clever me forgot to bring my motion sickness medicine, instead I brought berocca along-.- Won from the trip, and decided to stop cause I wont want my winnings to decrease. Buffet w Cedric and we went exploring the cruise. The guards kept staring at us though we're some underage kids-.- Sucks much. Found a corner, and sleep ;x I know like stupid, but we were sick of it-.- I prefer mahjong, honestly(:

2010-03-10T00:28:00.002+08:00

Miss the one above monster loads ♥

Finally, today marks the end of my ITE life for the past 2years. In between my course I actually have much thoughts of just quitting it, and give up on my studies cause it was too much for me to handle. I continued my course in the end, and tadah, it just felt as if 2years ago we just entered ITE. It isnt really an official last day, its only my last exam paper. Results gonna be out in April, on April Fool some more! Simi nonsense sia ;( Anyway, its no more school from this moment onwards. I'm gonna sleep as much as I can, meanwhile finding a job, and also mahjong, shopping enjoy life while I can. The papers, I wont say I'll score well, but I'll just say I did my best, I guess I wont be having good grades, but I think I will pass. HAHA. Maybe a borderline pass some more! Best part of accounting - None of my accounts balances! HAHA, but I think I still tried my best. WAHHA. For auditing, theory was a lil screwed. But I guess a few marks from here and there, I should be able to pass *fingers crossed*

Few days back, had a lil tiff with Bboy, but everything's back to normal now. After all the talkings, I guess our relationship is a step closer than before. Big hug to my Bboy, cause he has always been there, supporting me, motivating me to study, and also to accompany me while studying. True enough we're both at different places, but having him on webcam feels very much like he's sitting next to me, staring at me while I'm studying my notes. The one who knows when to put stress on me, and emphasizing that no matter how hard the paper is, this is part of life. We all have to go through this stress. Try my very best, and everything will be fine. I believe we can go through this period of time.We watched each other fall, and at the same time, help each other to pick up and stand back on our feet. I♥you much baby.

So today, headed to school. Supposed to meet Eben at 12 to study, but in the end I guess we were both late. Met up w Amanda&the girls to study at cafe1. A last min muggig session din do any good ;( It was more of like stuffing all the notes into my brain, and at that point of time, I think I just need a memory card man. Tick tock, 3pm, it was time for the final paper in my ITE life, Auditing. Din know how to do some questions, at least I attempted ;D After the papers, gathered together, and yes. Instead of like what Weekiat suggested ORD loh, we all can say GRAD loh! Had popcorn chicken and after that bussed over to Regina's palce for mahjong session. The game was good [: Was losing at first and constantly feeding Alicia, but towards the end of the game, I manage to gain back what I've lost, also, gaining back which means a profit ;D The game ended around like 11, walked 2busstops w Jessica, and it feels good, the breeze ;D Rushed home to msn'ed and webcammed w Bboy before he KO to bed cause he gotta wake up early at 6am for his class.

It's March, and I'm counting down to June, when you're back right here with me. I miss your kisses, and your everything♥

2010-03-05T22:44:00.000+08:00

Normally at this hour.

we'll be busy webcamming, or skyping.

Now, you're not even online ;(

Not even a text from you;(

I wonder so hard where are you.

I miss you.

2010-03-05T21:24:00.002+08:00

She's the little girl I babysit today. Havoc. Had a nightmare earlier on when I woke up, it was fucking scary ;(Am I too paranoid and all, that's why I had this kinda nightmare?Anyways, Woke up around like around 10odd, wanted to head to school when I received Eben's text, then decided to skip school and study with him later on. Grandpa headed to doctor, leaving me all alone at home ;( He came back, with the doctor's referral letter to go to CGH for Xray, all the more I gotta stay home. By then Eben told me that he's going to AMK to study-.- So I decided to stay home. Wanted to study, but this lil monster came over, so I gotta babysit her. To sit down and do her drawings with her, to bathe for her, to clean her backside after she shit, to feed her, bring her to playground and all. So much that I dont even have the time to do my own revision ;( Ultra Sadface ;( Gonna mug tonight ;( Came back online, and Bboy isnt online ;(

I miss you. I know all the insecurities hurt much, but it hurts in me too. I din want to become like this, but what can I do to stop being like that? I want you so much back here, right next to me. When will you come back to my arms love ;(

2010-03-04T20:46:00.002+08:00

Thanks to this awesome calculator which kept me company during my revision today ;D Skyped w Bboy till like close to 4am this morning, it was totally mad insane, reason being - his class only starts at 4pm-.- Woke up around 9odd and prepared, den meet up w Pearlyn, and off to fulfil our craving - Mac's Big Breakfast ^^ Awesome, but after that meal, both of us shiited-.- HAHA, Wanted to head home but since the shops all just opened, and it was rather quiet, so we decided to went walking around and hunt for stuffs ;D Headed over to my crib to nua'ed around, She fishvilled' while I did my accounts. Struggling, due to lack of sleep, I find myself hard to concentrate. Did a few questions, and after that went over her place . Meet up w Willy, and down to jog ;D Awesome 2rounds of jog <3 Headed home, and lovely parents went down to get me noodles cause I have not taken my dinner ;D

Days to exams just getting closer, and YES!
My birthday, we're going to go on a day cruise the day before my birthday to celebrate

OHOH, ANDANDAND, I sneak a peek at my mailbox today, I saw Bboy's letter! So I went up to get the key , and read his first letter ^^ Sillyboyyy, I<3YOUUUUU.

2010-03-04T00:10:00.001+08:00

Woke up early today, had cup noodle for lunch, and I'm actually quite sick and tired of it ;( Would really wish for something else sia ;( Over to hospital to get some stuffs done, and over to school to pass Alicia her papers. Left school after that cause Mum actually rather me to go and see a doctor . Bumped into Gracia, and accompanied her to study at cafe1. Studied till close to like 5odd, headed home, and prepared. Down to meet Pearlyn for jogging session. Home to nua for awhile, and headed to meet Pearlyn to slack. Gonna meet her tmr for breakfast, and also a mini shopping ;D Then home to study while she meditate. Am currently skype'ing w Bboy right now. I gotta feeling my birthday gonna celebrate at cruise. Awesome much. Count down to exams, sucks much.

Baby, I miss you so<3

2010-03-02T20:19:00.002+08:00

HOOLA. Its already the 2nd day of March, days to my birthday is getting closer, but days getting to exams is EVEN CLOSER! Have not been attending school since yesterday. Reason partly because I was damn sick, with the flu, cough and sore throat. Worst ever. Supposed to meet up w Pearlyn to go down to Serangoon in the morning to settle stuffs, but my alarm clock I set wrong timing, thus I din meet her;( Stayed at home the whole day, since it was Bboy's school holiday over there as well. Webcammed the whole day, and also Bboy watched me studying to make sure that I did really study. Guess studying at home wont really have much concentration as there were too many distractions. rrahh. Supposed to KO at like 12 odd, cause gotta class the next morning, but end up Bboy told me that he couldnt get to sleep. Went back online and talked to Bboy. Him telling me what's troubling him, and that sillyboy is afraid that we'll quarrel over that issue . Talking about the future and everything, the feel is just so awesome ^^ I like ;D KO'ed around like 3 odd.

Woke up like 1odd eventually, cause my nose and throat giving me tons of problems. Been sneezing nonstop and I wish I can just chop it off ;x Being sick reminds me of one occasion, where Bboy dropped by my place w soup from Soup Spoon, and also with a rose, asking me get well soon[: Loveit(: Prepared, and down to Sengkang to meet up w Eben&the girls at his place to study. It was so hard concentrating cause my nose and throat kept giving me problems;( Parents came and sent me home, and after that gotten my dinner craving. On the cam w Bboy now[:

I miss you, babykins

2010-02-28T02:48:00.004+08:00

I still miss your presence much.
So near yet so far,
I miss you babykins, the one I gave the key to my heart.

It's been one week since you left. A week ago, I sent you off to airport, you wearing your superman tee,w your dad.

I miss you painting my nails for me.

I miss you holding my hands, us walking at ECP&WCP.

I miss you calling me "BB" in your cute tone.

I miss you always trying to fool around w me w "Thomas"

I miss you for your random surprises.

I miss seeing your name appearing on my phone.

I miss us eating sushi together.

I miss us walking aimlessly at shopping malls.

I miss us talking cock throughout our bus journeys.

I miss us watching movies together

I miss your warm hug which makes me feel warmer at the cinemas.

I miss your soft lips touches mine.

I miss your voice, you telling me " Baby, you're beautiful. I love you"

I miss your touch, cause each time we hold hands, I could feel the stronger connection between us.

Baby, I miss you much.

I know you're drowning in your tears inside you, so I am. We'll try our best, to stay strong and cheer up, and study hard. There's so many things we have yet to do.

You promise we'll go watch the sunset together.

You promise we'll go try the Universal Studio's spa together.

You promise we'll go Underwater World together.

You promise we'll go sun tanning together while you stay in shades.

You promise we'll go Osaka together.

You promise we'll do everything together.

I longed for you to be back here, there's tons of things we've yet to do. Come home quick, back in my arms baby. I miss you, and your everything.

xoxo

2010-02-27T23:24:00.002+08:00

Long day today. Webcammed w Bboy last night till close to 3am I guess, or was it 2am, and couldnt fall asleep. Nua'ed and stoned on the bed until like close to 4am den I KO'ed. Woke up around like 8odd cause something happened to my grandpa, and my neighbour came waking us up to help grandpa. KO'ed back to bed, and I eventually only wake up at like 11odd. Prepared , and down to Hougang to get my hair screwed. Took me like prolly 3hours later before my aunt started doing stuff to my hair. After its all done headed home, and on my way back was feeling damn uncomfortable;( Was feeling so giddy, and the bus ride was jerky;( Headed home, and the headache din get any better, so I started popping panadols ;( But it still wont help ;( Aunt striked lottery, and treated us pizza[: After a sinful meal, Mum and I headed to jog(:

The headache gets worst, how many more panadols must I pop before it goes off;(

2010-02-26T13:19:00.003+08:00

After 4months, we talked it out. A morning to start off. Finally both our bottles are emptied, all the unhappiness that has been bothering us both are poured out. I'll never love you a little less, instead I'll love you so much more. Now that the truth from both of us are out, there will surely be a bit of sadness, but it doesnt mean I wont love you anymore. Let's just slowly erase our past, and forget about it. Let's not let those past of ours,affect the future we've ahead of us. You're still my pillar of strength, the one who is willing to listen to all my grumblings, the one who will talk cock w me all the time whenever we're bored. You're the one I still love. I will accept you no matter how many times you court me, I'll spend the rest of my life accepting your courtship. You're the one that promise me you'll never let me be alone. We'll grow old together, I'll still stand by you, even when your hair turns gray and everything. You always tried your best to reassure me that things gonna be fine, you'll never lied and all again. In another 3years and 19days, I'll be waiting for you. One week ago, you broke the news to me, we cried so hard together, spending our last few moments together. I'm happy that before you left, we shared many happy memories, and yes, I'll use those memories to keep me strong, keep me going. We've our future planned out, we've our future in our hands. I really hope you'll study ultra hard, so instead of waiting for you to complete your studies 3years in Perth, all I have wait for 1year for you to transfer to Singapore. rrahh. Iloveyoustill, babydear[:
_________
So yesterday was our 4monthsary. I skipped school, and we webcammed all the way , attempting to do my notes and everything, but I guess it was a failed attempt. I really needa get my soul back to Singapore, rrahh ;( Today, headed to school for awhile to pass the notes, and stayed for awhile den came back home. Pouring out our unhappiness, I guess its a step closer for our relationship. Now, im gonna prepare, and off to meet Pearlyn for some nuaing session. Bboy, imissyou<3

2010-02-25T23:25:00.000+08:00

I made a birthday wish in advance earlier this month, that you'll study in Singapore instead of Aussie, but it din came true. Your mum wanted you back in Aussie, and it was a last minute decision, there wasnt even any sign/warning given to us that you were gonna leave my side so soon, so fast.

I made another birthday wish on the day you left, that we could celebrate our 20th birthdays together, but it din came true. Cause mum wont allow me to fly alone after that they kept asking me to put myself in their shoes. Will I feel safe if I wanna let my daughter to fly alone. Then again, I felt like asking them to put themselves in my shoes. Cause this one special guy that I felt for so much, I want to be as close as him as possible.

So right now, this very moment, I dont want to think about my birthday anymore. It doesnt matter if I'm turning 20. I dont want to make any birthday wish anymore, cause I know, wishes dont really come true.

2010-02-25T02:20:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 4TH MONTHSARY BABYDEAR.
ILOVEYOU(:

2010-02-24T23:54:00.002+08:00

Guess today was feeling kinda depressed and all, having all the random moodswings, feel like just isolating myself from the world. Woke up early today, countless of times, cause I dreamt that Bboy texted me, when its actually like 8odd in the morning when he'll only be awake around 10odd. Woke up like around 12, and settled maggiemee for lunch. As usual nothing new din even finish the whole packet, I guess I'm losing my appetite slowly, cause i'm no longer feeling so hungry as before, wonder if its a good thing or not. I insist on breaking Cedric's Bejewled score,and after that being late for school, I cabbed to school. Rrahh. Over for Accounting, and I guess I really need to find my soul back to Singapore ;( Had Auditing, and teacher agreed to release me at 4pm when I'm done w my assignment ;D Over to nua, and after that Amanda texted, so down to Kat's place to nua around, and mahjonged. Guess when one's not in the mood, luck wont be around as well. ggahh. Trained and bussed home after that cause parents gotten dinner.

Currently ; Webcamming w Bboy (:

HAPPY 4TH MONTHSARY TO MY ONE&ONLY LOVE<3

2010-02-23T20:17:00.002+08:00

A random candid peekture. Bboy's back at Perth day3. I missed him. Supposed to be heading to school, but I overslept for my class due to a stupid nightmare . I woke up close to tears, cause I dreamt that I was being brought to "hell" where it feels more like old folks home says baby. Came online, and online'd w Bboy, awesome love. Thank god to the internet, I feel my distance w Bboy is nearer(: Bboy's parents might let him come back during his birthday, sadly, I cant fly over to celebrate my bday w him although he already passed me the money to sponsor for my ticket ;( But I'm gonna webcammie w Bboy and hes gonna sing Bday song for me online ;D Took loads of random peektures w Bboy on webcam, and we've been talking to each other since 2odd till now (: Supposed to head out after dinner w parents for some stuffs, but they're always fickleminded which I hated it much, and final decision is to stay home and talk to Bboy. [:

Iloveyoubabyy(:

2010-02-22T19:32:00.002+08:00

&The above image is so true, that I gotta post it up. Last night was shit cause of what the parents said to Bboy;( Skype w Bboy till like close to 1am. He finally touched down at Perth at around 5odd, and we chatted w each other all the way until 1am. From all the smile, to all the tears and giving him tons of sadface ;x Woke up around 11 odd 12 for class, just still couldnt accept the fact that Bboy left Singapore. I'm all alone here now, but I know, hes with me always. Bboy texted me during class, and those smses puts a smile on my face [: We are still trying to find more ways to stay connected to each other (: Accounting was boring, after that was PE Theory test. Lame test ever. The teacher read out the question, and gave us the answers. Telling us to write down the correct answers and put a tick and submit-.- Total waste of time. Its like almost the whole class got full marks for that-.- Over to interchange to check some stuffs, but dumbfuck Singtel is forever having long queue-.- Headed home, and online w Bboy [: Gonna online all the way until 12midnight.

Baby, its the 2nd day you're in Perth Imissyou. Study hard in Curtin, so you can get transferred to the one in Singapore. Iloveyou<3

2010-02-21T20:41:00.003+08:00

My superman, brother told me that he thinks you receive all the good compliments from my relatives, except that you're a little vain, which will do me good. He wont mind having you as his brother in law. Come back to my side soon baby, I'm going crazy.

People tell me " Dont cry, its alright. Cheer up, He wont want to see you crying until puffy eyes. He wont want you to see you in this state. This is just the beginning of life, you two can make it through together" Others prolly tell you the same thing what people tell me to stop you from crying. The fact is, dont people know that we cried for each other so much, even we even watch each other cry through webcam? They prolly wont understand us, saying we're still young, our time spent together is short. Do they know, this period of time may be short, but we go through hell lots of shits together?

I promise you, I'll try to eat well.
I promise you, I'll try to study hard enough, I know you'll see me through and motivates me .
I promise you, I'll try to sleep well at night.
I promise you, I'll have you my heart, and be in your heart always.
I promise you, I'll wait for you, to come back into my arms.
I promise you, I'll be your good girl.

Baby, I miss you so much, do you even know? Its not even a day yet, but it feels as if we've parted each other for days already. Today's only day1, how am I to survive the remaining days? I wished you were here with me, I want to feel your warmth baby. Even under the hot sun, I feel so cold and incomplete, because you're not right here with me.

2010-02-21T13:15:00.003+08:00

Ignore that cui face of mine. I've not been sleeping well the past few days, and also been crying so much that my eyes are all so puffy right now. Woke up at around 5 odd, Bboy's last morning call for me ;( Then prepared and went to meet Juliana and down to airport to send Bboy off;( Over to YaKun for breakfast, and din have much appetite, and after that when time is up, Bboy gotta go in ;( I regretted not chionging right to you, we both know we wanted that hug so badly, but I just din want it to seem so dramatic baby. 3years of studying overseas is not a short period of time. Like you said, its only the beginning. Immediately after you walked away, I cried so hard, I dont want you to go. I just want to fly over and be with you, or you to stay right here in Singapore. You should be touching down at Perth soon, in another 40mins or so. I'm waiting for your call. Damn baby, I miss you. Now, I feel so lost. Youve always been with me the past few months.

When I need a hug, you were there.
When I need a kiss, you were there.
When I need a pillar of strength, you were there.
When I need help, you were there& will try to help me out.

Who'll talk to me on the phone till I fall asleep?

Who'll webcam w me till late hours(I know you cant webcam for so long already ;( )

Who'll be there to hear me screaming in pain in the middle of the night?

Who'll bring me soup, and flowers to cheer me up, and surprise me when I'm sick?

Who'll nag at me to take my medicine for flu&everything.

Who'll constantly ask me about my knees, my flu my everything?

&List goes on.

Which boyfriend will use blood to draw out "I♥U" on the paper.

Which boyfriend will come all the way from West side to East side to pick the girlfriend from school, from work and meeting her almost everyday and not complaning.

Which boyfriend will write letters to the girlfriend that melts her heart.

Which boyfriend will do stupid things with the girlfriend.

&List goes on

When I'm lacking of motivation to study, you were the one constantly motivating me, encouraging me, not giving up on me. I'm like your little babygirl, the one you'll always pamper and everything.

1hour passed, and it felt like 1day.
1day, will it feel like a year?

Baby, Come back soon to Singapore will you;( Selfish of me, but I do hope you'll stay in Singapore;( I want my superman back in Singapore ;( Will you come home soon baby? Run back to me, to my arms. You're like my everything, I'm so dependent on you. Remember we want to start a family together, painting our own walls with our desired colours, and naming our children? I need you by my side, my life feel so incomplete now ;( My missing piece is so far away from me ;(

2010-02-20T20:56:00.002+08:00

Fridayy
Headed to only Accounting lesson, attending for like an hour of class. Down to Outram to meet Bboy, only to receive a bad news from him;( Din wanted to go for my dental appointment, but he insist, so I headed. Cried out and all, den we headed down to Bugis to get some stuffs for myself as well as Bboy. Meet up w Eileen, and after that we walked around Bugis, din get what we wanted, so we headed down to Cine instead. All of us gotten things that we love <3 Eileen gotten her FP jacket+Vans shoes (I'm the main cause actually) den Bboy gotten his FP shoes he wanted all the while, and also speakers and others. BBoy gotten me COACH wristlet for advance birthday;( Headed back to Tampines for dinner, and after that Bboy sent me home ;(

Today
Woke up early, and headed down to West Coast Park for mac's breakfast. Had a nice slow walk along the beach <3 Walked back to Bboy's place, and waited for him to pack his stuffs. After done, we headed to West Coast Mall to get sushi, and also to get another prepaid card. Accompany Bboy, and after that trained down to Tampines for Delifrance, and walk home. Gonna wake up super early tmr.

Baby, imissyou. I hope dad approves ;(

2010-02-17T22:35:00.002+08:00

ChuYi&ChuEr
CNY was good. It was all the visitings and everything, except that like a lot of cousins din came ;( At least the usual clique gathered together once a year again ;D Gambling like usual, and manage to win a little.

Chu San
Woke up and headed down to Holiday Inn Atrium. Meet up w Bboy there, and after that had Little Wynn's bday celebration. The buffet feels more like a high-class zhichar can ;x Played around w the food, and had tons of stupid laughters, talking about those good old times. Cabbed to PlazaSing w Pearlyn Willt & Bboy, wanting to catch a movie but all the time slots were taken up. So we walked over to Grand Cathay. Sucks cuase while we were queuing, the screen showed "sold out" to our time slot and movie. Fed up, we cabbed down to Great World, and walked around. Did a lot of nonsense stuffs at Great World. LOL. Before the movie, we went shopping at FairPrice, buying all the snacks and drinks and sushi into the theatre. But sadly, the sushi ain fresh at all ;( Caught The lightning theif and its awesome. Worth the money, worth the cab! [: Shuttled bus back to Orchard, and trained back home.

Spent the past four days w Bboy, awesome much. iloveyou, despite all the heartaches.

2010-02-14T10:34:00.002+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR& VALENTINE'S DAY [:

I'm a happy soul.So yesterday woke up like 9odd, cause Bboy called, after that over to meet Willy to get some stuffs done [: Headed home to do all the prayings, and after that went to meet Bboy near my house (: Glad he liked the tarts (: Over to accompany him to do stuffs to his hair, and after that went walking around. Ssomething happened, but everything's fine now. Headed home for dinner, damn my balloon got hole ;( Steamboat and after that all the nuaing session. Gambled till around 11, and all of us shared maggiemee[: Awesome Bboy came down to my place at 12midnight w flowers(:

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY EARTHLINGS, I'm gonna go visiting(:

2010-02-12T01:41:00.000+08:00

Bboy, I miss you much.

2010-02-09T00:10:00.002+08:00

Dear Bboy,

I don't need any special occasion to type out what I feel for you and everything. You've been the best boyfriend ever. The one filled me w love, let me feel what's the real meaning of love. We both stay far ends from each other, but that does not create a wall between us, in fact it got us even stronger. You are one sweet guy, and the one that completes my life.

The one,
who comes all the way down&got me soup w rose when I'm sick.
who comes all the way down&got me running shoes so I can start training for my running few weeks back.
who will webcam w me almost every night even though we met up like hours ago.
who will be on the phone w me till one party is tired.
who will wake up early in the morning even during off day to wake me up for school.
who will come all the way down to fetch me from school when free.
who brings me to do my random shopping stuffs.
who brings me to eat my random cravings, and its always salmon sushi or fish&chips.
who used to come down to fetch me off work.
who will send me sweet texts to make my day, and puts a smile before I sleep.
who is always my pillar of strength whenever I'm down.
who will talk cock/shit w me whenever I'm bored.

who will try his best to help me as long as its within its means.

who will take long bus ride w me estimated time was 2hours-.-

who will travel from one end to another just to meet me.

who will try his best to send me home to ensure my safety.

and many others more.

You made a huge impact in my life, and now it feels like you are part of me. You are my world, my soul my everything. My heart beats best when its w you. My hands fits perfectly only w yours. Only your lips taste like sugar, you always makes my heart skip a beat. Each time we say goodbye, I'll start to miss you soon. Each time we meet, it feels like I'm falling in love w you, all over again. This love, I never want this love to have an ending.

I love talking about our future together.

I love all the moments we spent together.

I love the time we walked from one end to another at ECP.

I love those bus rides we had together.

I love everything when I'm w you.

Soon, it will be our 4th together, and I know this love will last.

I love you Bboy(: Since 25th Oct 2009♥

2010-02-08T16:55:00.003+08:00

Weekends
Woke up like around 12 odd cause brother came back from fieldcamp. Nuaed at home the whole afternoon cause relatives came. Shortly after we prepared, and down to Bedok to do some CNY shopping(: Over to Granny's for dinner, and after that headed back home. My flipflop died on me;( So I had to walk barefoot, how awesome shit is that-.- Headed home and prepared, den down to Tampines to meet up w Bboy. Lovely one gotten me durian pancakes ;D Down to powerhouse, supposed to meet up w Pearlyn but something happened, so she din come down in the end. Bump into familiar faces and I'm happy (: First I bumped into Benjamin, Joohniam&Co, which like I din see them for months I guess? Then I bumped into NicholasG Benny Alvin and others ! Drank, and hit the dancefloor, and left w Bboy. Had swensens for lunch [: Den Bboy send me back(: Shopping w family, and Cedric gotten himself like 5tees-.- Headed home, and slacked w Pearlyn&Willy, den send Cedric to book in, and back to meet them (:

Today
Hapiily slept for 14hours, and I'm still lacking of sleep ;( I need more sleep ;( Nuaed at home the whole day while waiting for Pearlyn to get off from school. Down to Vivo to get some stuffs done, sadly. BEBE was a disappointment ;( It was alr closed by the time we reached there ;( Look for Kelvin awhile, and trained back home ;D

2010-02-06T00:27:00.002+08:00

Thursday
Over to school to attend Accounting. Met up w Amanda at interchange before heading to school, and after that self revision. Rare chance to see everyone trying their best to attempt to complete a question, seriously. haha. Bboy was sweet to come down to school to pick me up again (: Over to TenahMerah, and train to Expo for the burberry sales. The queue was damn long, in the end we went to another sales. Gotten myself like $50 odd of undergarments, like its a steal luh seriously. Wanted to walk more, but gotta control ;( So we left Expo. Subway for lunch, and after that down to Bugis to study[: Cravings for fish&chips, cause had salmon the past few days, so we went to Swensens(: After that Bboy sent me home [:

Friday
Overslept for school, its nothing new liao. Arrived to school and did a lil accounting, more of like doing out the format. Skipped Auditing, and over to cafe1 for lunch(: Headed home, and after that gotten lunch for Chester, and rushed out to Bugis to meet up w BabyBitch&Bboy. Walked around, and only gotten a top. Wanted to get heels, but it isnt worth the price. Over to some place for noodles. Their prawn noodles like damn awesome. We ordered like damn a lot and shared the food. haha! Over to JiDeChi after that&kinda make a fool out of ourselves. HAHA. All these happy moments are love[: On our way back to Expo, Bboy gotten me the balloon above ;D So I carried it all over from Bugis all the way home (: Trained to Expo again, and gotten durian pancakes :D Bussed to my place and nuaed. BabyBitch helped me w my nails while that silly boy just KO'ed for a short while. HAHA. They left like around 10 odd and thankyou for the maggiemee(:

I love every moments spent w you, youre the one. iloveyou.

2010-02-03T00:05:00.002+08:00

Big hugs to Bboy for waking up at 830 in the morning just to wake me up so I'll go to school and I wont be late, but sadly to disappoint him that I headed back to sleep again shortly after stoning ;( Then woke up around like 10 odd, and headed to interchange to meet up w Amanda to go to school together. She was hungry, so went over to TM to tabao food up to class. By the time we reach class, it was already dismissed. Over to Audit, and did a lil auditing. Class dismissed, and over to bus stop to meet up w Bboy [: Awesome one came all the way down from Pasir Panjang to fetch me from school. Lunched at ION food centre, the chickenrice like damn nice, but fucking expensive. Walked around to do his shopping, but sadly all places dont have the one that he wanted ;( Down to Bugis to study , and I manage to complete another chapter of notes. Down to Tampines for Sushi again, cause I was craving for it ;D AWESOMESHIT. Then Bboy sent me home. Dad thinks he look like some angmoh. HAHA.

ilovelovelove this boy of mine ;D

2010-02-01T19:24:00.002+08:00

Uber happy today. On the phone w Bboy last night, and also text til close to 3am. KO'ed. Bboy woke up at 11 odd just to gimme morning call so I wont be late for school♥ Bussed to school, and attended Accounting. Did a lil accounting, and after that was S.W The teacher din come, so it was a relief teacher. After some discussions, we decided to do our 2.4 run, and thanks to all the past few weeks running, my timing was 13min 30sec [: awesome shit (: Over to cafe1 for lunch, but couldnt finished. Bussed back home, and have been sitting in front of com for hours. Meeting cousin later, and i feel as if all my energy already drained out ;(

2010-01-31T03:08:00.001+08:00

Had a long day yesterday. Woke up around like 10 odd, and was supposed to fetch brother from book out to go breakfast, in the end he went for a quick breakfast w his friends, so we end up eating at home-.- Supposed to meet Bboy at Bugis at 1230, but I was ultra late, and I'm sorry for that ;( So in the end, Bboy came all the way down to Simei to meet me & we head down to Bugis together. Went to get his top at Bugis Junction, and after that over to Illuma to buy tickets, and after that wlked around Bugis Street. Bboy gotten for me belt, bag & a dress. The dress in black is nice shit lor ;( But cause for CNY, so I end up getting the red one ;( Back to Illuma for Tooth Fairy. & We gotten hotdog meal for our lunch. After the movie trained down to Parkway, and wanted to get stuffs. But seeing some aunties buying it from Cotton On, it became like a turn off, so we din get it in the end ;( Over to Face shop & gotten nail colours. Now, I've blue nails, it look weird cause the painting process was a madness one. LOL. We wanted to go Parkway's hawker for Chicken rice, in the end we went to East Coast Park. Imagine, Parkway all the way to ECP carpark B to carpark E for the hawker-.- I think we walked like 1hr odd. But it was a nice walk(: Gotten ourselves nice food, which caused us to feel fat ;( The old couple next to us thought we were not local and said that we could really eat a lot. LOL Cause we ordered dish after dish. HAHA. Gotten food for family, and after that we cabbed to my place. Bboy came over and help me w my nails, and stayed for awhile. Mum thinks Bboy like a gentle boy only. HAHA. Onlined till like 4am, and KO to bed.

Its a sunday and I'm always nua'ing around at home. rahrah.

2010-01-30T00:49:00.003+08:00

Been the longest time since I last update. Have not being doing much things lately, just that mind been so screwed and fucked up the past few days over tons and tons of stuffs. But after talking out w the 3 awesome loves, I feel a lot better, and of cause w the help of jogging. Jogging really helps me to clear my mind.

So today, School was at 10, but I woke up only like close to 10. Prepared, and mum gotten me breakfast, so I had a lil bit of it. Cabbed down to school cause if I take a bus, it'll be damn late-.- Did a lil on ACCPAC, and after that it was free&easy. Stayed for Audit as well, and I found out that I missed out on a lot of topics;( Which isnt a good sign. Gotta start doing the notes for it and all already. Headed to Changi Hospital after school for awhile, and then bussed home to prepare stuffs. Over to Tampines to meet up w Bboy, and we settled lunch at Delifrance as promised. After that wanted to head to BodyShop to get nail colours, but the shop closed, suck big time ;( Over to Kallang, and went to study (: Then after that headed back to Tampines and went to drop by to find BabyBitch. Bboy gotten me a top from there [: YAY, not black in colour, awesome HAHA. Decided to settle dinner at Mos Burger, and after that Bboy walked me home, carrying my bagpack w heavy laptop ;D Gotten food for family(:

Imissyoulove.

2010-01-25T22:56:00.004+08:00

Happy 3rd monthsary to Babykins ;D

So today, I woke up at like around 10 odd, wanted to KO back to sleep, but I couldnt ;( So I woke up to used the com all the way until its time for school. Had small quick lunch, and prepared to school. On my way there, I find myself scratching my hands badly, and realise its rashes again-.- Must be damn those plasters for muscle pain ;( Dropped the idea of heading to school, and headed to Polyclinic for it instead. At the same time checking for my kneecap. Damn long, lesson learnt - Never to go polyclinic during their lunch time-.- I arrived at like 1245, and the queue outside the clinic is as though people queuing for HelloKitty kinda thing-.- Only entered the clinic at like 130-.- and see the doctor at like 2pm. Freaking waste of time, but its good that I went early cause its damn crowded after that. There were like 50 people odd or more waiting for the front desk to register luh. Bboy was awesome shit, he came down to accompany me to see a doctor ;D He was supposed to fetch me from school, but I din went, so he came down to accompany me instead ;D Walked over to CenturySquare for Sushi ;D Bboy insisted on Delifrance but I won ;D Lunched at Sushi, and I had tons of SalmonSushi w Scallops! I want more ;( like seriously ;( Walked around the malls, and after that Bboy walked me home from interchange, and he gave me necklace for the monthsary. Awesome shit, I loveyou boyfriend ;D

I pray that things for Mum's gonna be okay ;(

2010-01-24T23:24:00.002+08:00

Friday was school, and was late. The weather was like damn comfortable to sleep can, it was raining heavily early in the morning luh. Headed to school for Accpac and after that left during Audit. Headed home to prepare, and down to PasirRis to fetch Cedric from bookout. LOL, and one of his friend thought I was his girlf. LOL. Trained down to Tampines and waited for Chester then over to Pizza for dinner. Tio con literally, cause they made me go and said bill was to be split equally, I end up footing the bill-.- Walked around Tampines1 for awhile, den down to HarbourFront to meet up w Bboy. Went into AX to get his newyear clothing, and wrong choice to go shopping before clubbing. LOL. Gotten a top/Dress and its for cny too ;D Down to Rebel around like 9odd, and we stoned at ClarkeQuay. Waited for the rest to come down, and they opened like close to 10 bottles of Chivas. Suckass, I think its the reason why there's red spots on my hands-.- 5-10 w a few of them, and one of them cheated I swear. I swear I won but he insisted I lost. Got myself wasted, but thanks to the awesome boyfriend being there, he helped me (:

Left the club, and headed back. Woke up, and something happened in the family, gotten so worried ;( KO'ed on bed at like 1 odd, all the way till 3 odd, den stayed home all the way. KO'ed at 1am odd, and all the way till 1pm odd. Nuaed at home, den after that over to 85 for dinner w family, and back home. I'm still feeling sleepy. Tmr's 2.4km, suckass. I sure fail liao lor ;(

2010-01-21T22:43:00.002+08:00

Past few days was good, spending time w Bboy. Din manage to go to the outing this morning cause I woke up a bit later, thinking I'll miss the school bus, so I decided to head back to sleep. Bboy woke me up at 10odd, and over to school for Accounting. Over to Tenahmerah to meet up w Bboy after that (: and over to CityHall. Over to do a mini shopping(: and after that Bboy went to satisfy my random craving - Sushi [: Awesome. Then we went to Penisula, and wanted to get some stuffs but nothing caught our eye ;( Drizzling, so we cabbed down to AnnSiang for Bboy's FredPerry. Eyed on a pair of shoes, but it din have his size. So we went to walk around until we landed at Chinatown. Bboy gotten me shorts[: we walked around, and like keep getting drinks to drink-.- Trained to Raffles, and over to LaoPaSat for dinner, or rather my other two random cravings ;D Disappointing ;( Newton's much better ;( Bboy then send me home [:

Hope youre feeling better bboy<3

2010-01-18T22:48:00.002+08:00

Was feeling down on friday night, so down that I dont know what to do. Brother's first bookout on Friday, and we headed to ChangiVillage for a meal. Jiahao tagged along, and happened to bump into GuoHeng there, like 2days straight in a row. Homed.

Saturday mum woke me up at 7 odd, cause she was rushing for work-.- But I've no idea why did she woke me up-.- Slept, and KO'ed back all the way again until like 12odd. Prepared and stuffs, den down to Bugis to meet up w Bboy den we went to Simlim. Instead of getting my stuffs, its always getting his stuffs cause I always cannot find my stuffs ;( I think I look weird in everything ;( Stayed at Bugis the whole day. Over to Illuma, dinnered at some Japanese food outlet cause I wanted salmon, and I still think, I should just stick to sushi ;( The rice like too dry, I din even really finish half of the rice ;( Caught The spy next door. Its so much better than It's complicated but the movie is a lil short ;( Nuaed around Bugis, everything was good until towards the end, damn that bitch. I swear I hate ex girlfriend _l_

Stayed home the whole day on sunday cause woke up like 8odd for breakfast w the family-.- Over to 800odd for breakfast, then headed home. Nuaed at home, and webcammed w Bboy. Ko'ed like 2hours, and woke up for dinner at market area before sending brother to book in.

&Today, headed to school for only Accounting. Cant even wake up for Audit ;( Did consolidation , and after that teacher told us who passed and all. YAY, I passed the test, with the help of Eben, awesome much. Now I just needa concentrate on the final exams in early march. Did shuttle run and half of 2.4km run during SW, cause it rained halfway-.- Met up w Gracia, and over to gym[: Subway after that, and their service sucks . I hate it. Home around like 5 odd, den meet up w cousin to go jog ard 8. Had lil talk while jogging, such love.

I needa start doing my revision else I gotta suffer during CNY period ;(

2010-01-16T00:47:00.003+08:00

My heart feels as if its tearing apart. How does it feels like to be close to death. Tell me about it. I tried a million times not to just let the dumb imagination to go wild, but it still did. Stab me someone. It hurts so much, that I just want to dig my heart out. Its just a random feeling, why. I think I'm just feeling way too insecure . Why.

2010-01-15T15:06:00.003+08:00

I think I should declare Thursdays as holidays instead of Fridays. I need a 4day school week instead of 5. damn. ;( Met up w BabyGirl at interchange today, if not I think I'll just nua my day at home and not attend school again. Accounting was okay, New topic and it feels like shit. Audit next, and it was like crap. All just copy answers down and that's it. Half of the class was gone during Audit. Should have go off instead of going to get snacks to eat. Accompanied BabyGirl for her parents to come, and start to talk a little on life. Walked over to CGH to meet mum to pass her stuffs, and after that bussed back home. Brother's booking out today, coolness. I missed him like so much, so many things to talk cock about.

I gotta clear all my clothes, bags, books and other nonsense stuffs by Sunday. CNY is getting nearer. I'm more excited in like meeting all my cousins again, maybe going for midnight show again. I was clearing my stuffs, and looked through at all the photos that we took like years ago. How we always meet up on every sunday and played crazily. Getting scoldings from the neighbours and having police officers to come talking to us asking us not to play football and all. Sneaking to playground when the adults are busy playing their mahjong and dont really bother about us, staying over at each other's crib. The young us where we wont have to really bother or worry about anything, all the crazy times spent together.

At times I do envy others, who got everything they want in life. Right, money is important in life. Without it, there's so many things you cant do. Face the fact, as we all grow older, we become more materialistic, in some way. Now I wish I would have like tons of money to spend, never ending. Without worrying about the future and all. Soon, we'll all graduate. We gotta start thinking what we are going to do in the future. Private dip, retain, retake, or step into the working life. As much as I hate school, I rather time spent on education could like extend, so we wont have to worry so much . I dont even really know what I'm going to do in the next few months after graduating, let alone talking about the future. Regret not heeding my parent's advise - to study hard. Instead, I somehow listened to my cousin's word " If you hate the teacher, den dont attend the lesson. If you dont like the subject, dont attend class. That's what I used to do " Dont even know if I can really like be sensible and not lazy and attend all the classes, not being late and all. What kind of job I'm going to be working in the future and many more other worries.

Love life have been good so far, all the bull shitting and talk cock in the bus rides, those train rides, on the phone, in sms and every other way. It feels so good that now hes feels like my close friend and every other things. The one who is there to support me when I was feeling uber down for some reasons, for my random moodswings and all the other little stuffs . The one who go through w me all my problems, and try helping me to solve it. &I appreciate it <3

Family been good. Financial problem but at least I think we are contented w what we have now. Of course, if financial isnt a problem, it will be even better. We all used to bicker and fight w each other when younger, but as time passes, we became like a lot closer. To parents , and to siblings. Brother's enlistment made him feel how important family is to one,and it was from that moment onwards, my brother changed. Well, he dont normally tell me " Sis, I miss you. I love you" But close to 20years in life, he have been texting me that when he's camp.Tell me where to find such a lovely brother. AHA. That's maybe also why I think I should spend more time w the family and staying at home though I'll be on computer. At least, my brothers will talk to be random stuffs, my mum will watch w me VCD and challenge bejewelled. That's what we've been doing the past few days, damn gay but I like it. I dont want to regret anymore in the future about my past. So right now, I'm going to live my life like to the fullest kind of things, doing more outdoor activities.

I think after 20years, I need to really know what I want in the future. I dont want to be a roaming soul. Gotta go pack my stuffs, and hopefully by CNY, I'll be another different me. Less than 3months of education. I just hope I'll be able to graduate smoothly, and pass all my papers. Fuck those numbers.

On a super random note, I just missed the feeling of french kissing w a girl.

2010-01-15T00:21:00.002+08:00

Life been good so far, in less than 3 months we're all graduating from the school. Had budgeting test like yesterday, and I have totally no confidence in passing the paper cause I only manage to complete a question of it like only the day before while studying w Eben, and what's more, its all like refer and he teach one-.- Over to RoxySquare for lunch, and after that down to Mervyn's place for mahjong session. Bussed home and when for a jog w cousins. Awesome much. Manage to wake up this morning w Bboy's wakeup call but decided not to head to school cause was effing lazy and wasnt in the mood to do so. Prepared, and had a quick lunch, den over to Bboy's place [: Movie'd and also played Bejewelled, His mouse suck ;x Over to Westmall after that for dinner. Wanted to KFC then to Sushi but we end up eating Fish&Co. First and last time we're going there, always cant finish our food ;( Bussed to Vivo and caught It's Complicated , den we went to Cold Storage and Giant to get Bboy's food, and my stuff ;D Bboy sent me back to Tampines and he trained back cause by the time he reach home if hes gonna send me, hes gonna miss his last bus ;D Its friday tmr! WAHAHA, Brother's gonna book out, and we're going for good dinner. Stingray and others, here I come ^^

2010-01-11T23:02:00.002+08:00

Bboy was awesome shit(: Was having bad stomach cramp last night so I called Bboy to talk on the phone. Knowing he gotta wake up at 6am I felt quite bad actually ;x He's so sweet to accompany me on the phone the whole time until my pain got better, until I was sleepy. We were on the phone till like close to 4am this morning (: Obviously I couldn't wake up for 9am lesson but cause the cramp still hurts a lil. Woke up only at like 12, and Bboy woke me up all the way from 8plus ;( I'm good at snoozing though ;x Prepared, and had a quick lunch at home, or rather the first meal of the day, and cabbed to school. Attended AA2, but stil quite lost. I dont think I'll pass this upcoming test ;( Had PE next, and did NAPFA. Took the height and weight, and the weight is damn depressing ;( I think I'm damn super fat already ;( Did situp, standingboardjump and also pullup. Thank goodness I manage to pass all 3stations, what I fear most is all the running;( Nuaed a while in school, and after that walked to CGH to meet up w BabyBitch. Bussed to inter to meet up w Gracia. Nuaed around at inter, and after that BBoy called, so I walked all the way home [: Sense of achievement though. I hope it will maintain. Had quick early dinner, and after that went jogging w Chester and Kailin [: Awesome shit, jogging around the two schools. Now I'm glad I've found jogging partners (: &Am webcamming w Bboy now(: I love that silly just so much<3

2010-01-10T23:40:00.002+08:00

From yesterday
Woke up like around 11 odd to do all the prayings and all, and after that waited for Willy to come over, and we headed to TampinesMall to catch Alvin&theChipmunks2 w Chester. After the movie bussed down to Parkway to meet up w Bboy (: Walked around Parkway and din even manage to get anything for myself ;( I just love spending time w Bboy (: The awesome boyfriend [: Settled lunch at the bar outside Cotton On, but too bad I had my lunch earlier on, so I din really eat anything much ;( Boyfriend then send me home after that and Mum's actually pretty happy that I'm out w Bboy cause he'll get me home early (: Nuaed the whole day today w the cousins, and packing of stuffs, and also mahjong. Went for a jog cause of a fucked up stuff, but its all over now ;D

2010-01-08T21:00:00.002+08:00

Yours truly is here to update the blog for dear Bboy to read ;D

From Yesterday

Woke up like around 10 odd to get some stuffs done,it was raining and the weather was like damn nice to sleep luh ;D Came back home, and nuaed around, den after that manage to pack my cupboard a lil. I realised I got tons of rubbish, and I manage to throw away all the older stuffs in the past. Dig out a lot of photos when we were so much younger, and comparing to now and the past, we were so much fatter last time la! Had a good laugh at the past. LOL. Prepared, and off to meet Bboy at Vivo to get my shoes changed ;D &Now, I can go jogging already! I'm a happy kid ;D I manage to have my subway [: My sudden craving (: Over to Kallang for walk, and after that Bboy sent me back (:

Slept around like 1145pm, and I only woke up at 145pm. I think I shld not take the drowsy medicine at night, it only makes me want to laze on the bed. Bboy called like since 8plus, and Mum too, but I'm still in my bed, sleeping. Den cousin came over, but left shortly and me nuaing around-.- Wanted to head back to sleep, but another relative came and my grandpa asked me to join for mahjong. More like its a must to play cause they wont have enough player.LOLOL. Luck was good, and I won like $xx. Gave mum like a bit of the money (: Cause she came back when we were playing la-.- Supposed to go for a jog , but my face's swollen, dad rather I stay at home ;(

Willy gonna drag me to watch Alvin&the Chipmunks tmr. He watched the trailer like over and over again and laugh out loud at my place. So, its movie tmr, and meeting Bboy (:

2010-01-06T14:24:00.002+08:00

Was super sick yesterday, so I din update. Back to school yesterday feeling fucking sick ;( W me constantly blowing my nose is uber shit. Bboy gave me a morning call ;D to wake me up. Lessons was okay, just damn lost-.- Lunched after school, and after that we started to talk about future what we wanna do and all. Left school like around 2 odd, and bussed home. Waited for cousin to came over, and nua'ed at home all day long ;( Had dinner w the cousins, and a last minute decision to head over to interchange to get stuffs done. To my surprise, Bboy came down to my place and left a pair of Nike shoes w a rose at my doorstep ;D Cause its been long time ago that I wanna go jogging but always dont have the shoes. LOL. So Bboy bought it and left it at my doorstep. Called Bboy, and he decided to walk back to meet up w my cousins and I. Down to interchange, and walk all over the malls, getting our stuffs done. Had mac , den Bboy headed home (:

Awesome Boyfriend I have ;D

2010-01-04T21:31:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 20th Birthday Kaikai (: A year older already, and that means its my turn like few months later ;( Woke up around like 9 to have a nice talk w my brother, and I'm proud that my lil brother is becoming into a real man now, going through army and all. I know hes feeling a lil stressed up, worried and all but its part of life. Soon, it'll be 15th Jan when he first book out (: Nuaed w him at home till like close to 12. Headed to WhiteSands for mac for lunch, and after that waited for JiaHao to come over. Over to Tekong, and my mum suddenly asked me " Girl, Tekong is where you always cycle right?" And I kept laughing at her after that. Tekong was big, it was kinda draggy, bumped into familiar faces like Johnny! Stayed there til like around 4, and ferried back to the ferry terminal. Bussed back, and nuaed at home. Sheesh, feeling super tired, and waiting for lil brother to call home before I KO'ed to bed. School's tmr and I gotta do housework and all the stuffs for one week, damn.

I miss my Bboy, and he owe me my balloon ;D

2010-01-04T10:07:00.002+08:00

Its 4th Jan, and I guess none of us wants this day to come.
I'll miss those times we bicker over lil things.
I'll miss those nights when we cant get to sleep and had lil conversations about life and all.
I'll miss those times we played spot the difference together.
I'll miss those times disturbing you when you're sleeping.

Over the years, we became closer, &I really mean a lot closer.
Having all the late nights together, and when we were at Macau, we survived through it together.
On this very day, my lil brother, is starting his journey to become a real man.

we'll all miss you<3

2010-01-03T23:09:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was good. Slept for whole 12hours , and it was awesome. I wished I can sleep for 12hours like everyday ;D Did a lil housework, and Aunt taught us how to cook curry chicken. EDIBLE ONE . Supposed to meet Bboy around 4, but in the end w all the house stuffs to do, I end up meeting Bboy like only 5odd. Met him at Chinatown, den we went for a massage ;D I had Swedish massage, and he had a Thai massage. It was like fucking pain, the lady was so determine to hear sounds coming out from the body, damn her. But it was good, my shoulders and back felt better (: After the massage Bboy brought me to do my manicure, and choosed the ah-lian pink colour for my nails. AHHA. He stoned at there while waiting for me xD After everything is done we headed to PlazaSing to meet up w BabyBitch&Thomas[: Had Hongkong Cafe for dinner, and their fish&chips serving was big ;( Sent Thomas to his bus stop, and after that cabbed down to Powerhouse (: Met up w the girls, and also Jonathan, partied and had fun (: Gotten to know a few other earthlings, and also bumping into Yingyu again! Not forgetting bumping into Roy which was damn shocking, and also many other people ;D BrotherJ says he gonna open a bottle for me on my bday HAHA. 5-10 w i forgotten who, but the night was good (: Left around like 3 odd, and Bboy sent me (:

Woke up, and down to Yishun for Kelvin's baby birthday. Nuaed over there, and after that headed home. Dinnered w the family cause brother's gonna enlist tomorrow. There sure will be peace at home, but of cause, we'll miss him, damn. I'm missing my Bboy also ;( rrahh rrahh

2010-01-01T20:58:00.002+08:00

Spent the last day of 2009, and the first day of 2010 w Bboy and a group of unknowns but lovely fun people[: Meet up w Bboy&Jonathan at like 6, and we headed to WhiteSands for sushi cause I was craving for salmon like again [: Over to Popular wanted to get the book, but didnt in the end ;( Bussed down to the chalet, and nua'ed around. Started drinking like around 11odd, and after the countdown, everyone was just plain drinking and listening to music . Walked to the beach, and the breeze is uber nice ;D I love going to the beach at night ;D Left the place like around 4odd. Woke up, and over to Granny's place . Feeling fucking tired ;( Steamboat at Granny's and plain nuaing session. Gathered all the lil ginnas den we started to chitchat about all the little random stuffs. Home now, and I'm going to KO early tonight (:

2009-12-31T16:04:00.002+08:00

My very last post for 2009. I'm going to spend it w a group of lovelys. Thank you to all the people who made my year for this year a better one, a memorable one. A brand new year, a brand new girl. I've a list to do for year 2010, and I hope I'll stick to it.

OKAY, gotta go prepare, toodles, and Happy New Year people ;D

2009-12-30T22:23:00.002+08:00

Time check.1030pm. I stayed home the whole day today, and I'm super proud of it. Then again I realise, staying at home the whole day is like an outflow for my parents. I switched on my laptop, and it has been charging since like 2pm this afternoon till now, together w the fans and the television on. So if the PUB Bills shoots so much this month, I'm the main factor ;x Maybe they should just let me go out then they wont have a shock when the PUB bills are here ;x

Had a quarrel last night, but everything's fine now. Slept at close to ard 8am this morning, and woke up like around 2 in the afternoon due to some fucker's call-.- He got the never-say-die spirit siol. Nuaed at home the whole day. Busy downloading songs from Youtube ;D I like ;D Taiwan drama the whole afternoon as well ;D &I'm gonna Hongkong Drama later ;D Changed my blogskin cause Bboy says it looked as if like someone has died kinda thing-.-

MMX chalet tmr, looking forward, and I'm spending my last moments of 2009 w Bboy and a group of clubbers^^

2009-12-30T00:25:00.002+08:00

Feeling shitty day 4.

How long this shit will last, tell me about it.

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Met up w Bboy in the afternoon, supposing like 2pm, but I woke up only at 2pm, so we met up ard 4pm. Over to have mac for lunch/dinner den after that cabbed to MountFaber, it will be good if it isnt drizzling lor ;( Bboy says he gonna bring me to JewelBox&CableCarDining one day ;D Shuttle bus back to Vivo, supposed to go drinking, but we end up watching Avatar cause he wanted to watch it since some time back. The movie was great. Ended around like 11odd, den cabbed back home.

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I should not be telling you and sharing with you all my shit, cause it'll end up making you feel like the way I do. If you feel that I'm not answering your calls just because I want to payback, then I tell you its not. You've no idea how shitty I've been feeling the past few nights. How down I was the past few nights. Hoping you were there for me, but I didnt wanna trouble you much. Prolly you're right, I'm your attention seeking girlfriend. Now, its feeling all damn heavy like the past few nights. Maybe I'm just good at making you feel all so shit. My eyes hurts from all the crying every night, I need to put a stop to it.

2009-12-29T02:23:00.004+08:00

I should not even be feeling this shitty right now.

Why does it have to happen to me every night.

I need to find out the reason behind it.

What does all the sadness, those tears shed, those loneliness feelings mean?

I want to head out, but I don't know where to turn to,

all I can think, all that's in my mind.

Its just park park park.

Its just beach beach beach.

Tell me how now.

Fuck this shit. I swear.

what is wrong w me ;(

I'm sorry if I kept pushing you away .

I know you'll read it.

There's like so much to say,

but sadly, I don't know how to put it all into words for your ears to listen.

2009-12-29T01:35:00.002+08:00

Awesome day today, or rather a tiring day today. I fucking slept at like only close to 5am in the morning, feeling all so shitty the whole night. Bboy called me at ard 8odd to gimme a morning call, knowing that I've to snooze and wake up for my remedial. Snoozed till around 9, and after that prepared for remedial. Over to interchange, and I finally take allowance from my mum. Top up my ezlink card like again though Bboy topped it for me days back, I travelled a lot, that's why-.- &After that bump into Vin Clara&Co at interchange. Over to school for fucking remedial, and I'm actually surprised that I actually went-.- Did a question which took close to 2hours, losing concentration so I decided to head home. Changed and prepared, bussed to Parkway to pass BabyGirl her stuffs, and helped her out at work. We were at Pastamania then the staff was so nice to treat us drinks when I want to make payment. AHHA. Jonathan came over to pass me Bboy's shoes, and helped to push our stuffs. Over to KFC, den after that I headed to PasirRis to meet up w brothers. Supposed to movie, but dont have the timing already, so we went to dine at HeiSushi. I love salmon ;D Walked to PasirRis park, den after that walked all the way back to WhiteSands. I want to buy a book to read ;( But its fucking $34, and I dont know if its worth the money not ;( Home, feeling so tired, so lonely;( Bboy is out w his cousins cause they're all back in Singapore. Hardly a text from him ;(

2009-12-27T21:04:00.002+08:00

Omg, what the heck.
Why am I giving myself so much stress,
and make myself feel so damn shit.
I'm definitely feeling shit now.

I had a nightmare this afternoon,
I woke up w tears filled my eyes.
I woke up w headache, cause I actually banged my head on the wall.

Fuck.

2009-12-26T02:05:00.001+08:00

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Woke up around like 1 in the afternoon to only find out one big shocking news that will lead me to my misery for the next few weeks. Gotta start doing my own housework already, damn ;( I hate it. Thank goodness Mum's clever to takeaway our meals everyday. LongJohn'ed for lunch, and due to the heavy rain, I cant head out yet ;( Gonna start preparing soon to meet up w Bboy for dinner at Newton. We're way too bored, dats why we're heading to Newton for dinner. WHAHAHA.

2009-12-25T22:55:00.002+08:00

Merry Christmas lil earthlings who pass by my blog (:

24th Dec
Woke up early in the morning to have breakfast w BabyBitch at interchange. First time we're eating until like damn stress cause there was this family of 6 sitting next to us, and it makes us feel kinda guilty by hogging a seat w our bag, which makes one of them gotta stand up. It was uber stress I swear. Over to get some stuffs, den headed to Willy's place to get stuffs done. It was kinda torturing over at his place though ;x Headed back home to put down stuffs, and after that out to interchange to meet up w Kaikai to pass her her stuffs, den after that went looking for stuffs, and over to get pedicure done (: Bought dinner home for Grandpa, and KO'ed till like 8odd in the evening. Waited for dad to come home, and over to ChangiVillage for dinner (: Dad brought us to see transexual after that. LOL. Amazing.

Happy Anniversary to my parents (:

25th Dec
Happy 2nd Monthsary&Merry Christmas ;D

Had a nice lil chat w the two little brothers last night tlaking about the past, nicexz. Woke up around 11 odd, and got some stuffs done (: Den headed to Vivo to meet Bboy(: Wanted to go over to Mount Faber, but cause it was raining, so we gotten subway and after that over to somewhere near his place there to settle lunch. Actually, anywhere is fine w me having my meals (: We shared the subway together and its been damn long since I last ate it-.- Bused down to Vivo wanting to catch a movie, but after that there wasnt any time slots, so we headed to MarinaSquare to watch. Somehow force Bboy to watch Alvin&the Chipmunks2 w me. AHHA. After that over to Suntec for awhile, den Bboy sent me home (: Thankyou for sending me back home though youre really tired. I love the fragrance bottle ;D

Again, Happy monthsary Baby, iloveyou.

2009-12-24T01:28:00.000+08:00

Then again, I think I'm a failed girlfriend.

2009-12-23T22:07:00.002+08:00

Finally I got home. Mum's like already giving me warning that first week of January my two lil brothers wont be home, so I gotta stay home for her to accompany her ;( ITS WEEKENDS LAE ;( OMGXZ. Woke up like around 5odd this morning, and headed back to sleep cause I was looking for tissuepaper. HAHA. Mum woke me up around like 7odd to ask me to accompany her but I guess I was just way too tired. KO'ed back , and woke up around like 11odd to prepare and meet up w Bboy at Tampines to get stuffs done (: Over to DP to look for BabyBitch, and after that gotten myself bubbletea. Bboy's not going to let me drink bubbletea anymore cause I'll feel full w it ;( Trained down to Kallang, and after that bussed down to Kallang Leisure Park. The bus took damn long to come luh ;( Supposed to have lunch immediately but that dumbdumblove of mine wanted to get shoes. So we ended up at SportsLink I think, and he gotten himself shoes, and changed it on the spot. Had BurgerKing for lunch,and couldnt really finish the food. Naomi&Jonathan came, den Chengyu came along shortly after them. Over to IceSkate, and hell loads of fun, except the part where Jonathan supposed to make Bboy fall but in the end I'm the one who fell down -.- I was communicating to a mute, and I found a new love at there! HAHA, the lil boy is just like, so cute! &He even held my hand to teach me how to skate, AHAH. Left around like 6odd, and bussed to Katong. Had Aston for dinner, and saw Liyan(: The guys just talks about army the whole day long-.- A guy walked past, and Bboy thought it was a waitress so he asked for the number. HAHA, and it got us laughing for a minute. Over to Jonathan's place cause Bboy wanna wash his face. Stayed for awhile, and after that bus12 home (: Bboy sent me home (: They're heading to club and I so wanna go also ;( But mum wants me home early ;( Ggahh.

I love spending time w you, and we're going to Underwater world together!

2009-12-22T22:57:00.001+08:00

Shall do a proper post now, had a post earlier on, but I deleted it away cause I guess its shit.

Monday
Woke up like around 10 odd, BabyBitch came over to my place (: Nuaed around till like 2 odd, and we were playing SpotTheDifference, and other nonsense games on facebook to kill time. Was a lil pissed off in the afternoon, but felt better after ranting everything to Bboy. Prepared, and after that met up w Bboy at Outram, den we headed down to meet Naomi&Jonathan at ClarkeQuay. Had dinner at BillyBombers, and the serving is like, damn big I swear. Couldnt finish my food. Bboy supposed to be sharing w me but he didnt lor ;( Over to drink at two different pubs. I like the lychee wine ;D but I still prefer the Lychee Martini at some other place ;D Nuaed around ClarkeQuay, and headed home before 12.

Today
Woke up around 12 and prepared everything left house ard like 1odd. Supposed to meet Bboy at Aljunied, but in the end we met up at Bedok. Went to have our lunch , den after that we headed over to Town (: Din even get anything for myself ;( I wanted the FredPerry's tee the one he got, but they dont have it in the female range ;( They suck ;( Walked all 3 outlets, and I din get anything ;( Instead, he got himself 2tops. rrahh. Wanted to get a top from Bebe, but they dun have the colour I want ;( Wanted to get another top from NewLook, but Bboy just cannot picture me w any other bottoms. Bad visualisation ;x Bboy sent me home.

&I love spending time w you <3

2009-12-20T19:45:00.000+08:00

I wanna change to a new blog hosting.

2009-12-19T22:29:00.002+08:00

I've staring at this space for minutes, or rather stoning at this page. I've no idea where to start blogging from. It seemed like I've lost the urge to blog, and I feel like deleting it away, or create a private space like all the other blogs in the past. Then again, I think its damn useless cause those blogs will never last for more than 2months.

Woke up around like 11odd again as usual. I've been waking up at this timing the past few days cause BBoy gave me the morning call. Prepared and nuaed around at home, then it started raining heavily. Damn the umbrella from China, I guess China products like really cannot be trusted kinda thing . I'm so going to get another umbrella cause the one from China is problematic. Same goes to my brother's computer mouse though they claim that its real-.- Even with umbrella, my whole bag got wet, and my legs too. Over to Bugis to meet up w Bboy, and I think I gotta stop nuaing at home too much. All the nuaing before meeting Bboy always got Bboy waiting for me . Wanted to head to Illuma to catch a movie, but damn the rain, so we end up watching at Bugis's Shaw. Was hoping to get some nice clothes from Topshop&DorothyPerkins but it seemed like there isnt anything nice that caught my eye ;( Over to MOSBurger to have lunch, and its my first time eating at MOSBurger. Walked around, and after that waited for 4pm for our movie . The movie was alright. I would really still prefer Alvin&theChipmunk2. A couple left the theatre cause the Malay girl was complaining that she dont understand Chinese and wants to watch Avatar. Movie ended like around 6odd, and accompanied BBoy to Harbourfront there to take a bus back home. Bus10 home, and the journey seemed damn long. Alone stoning, and it felt damn good. So many things running through my mind. Gotten home like close to 2hours later. How sucky can it get. Meeting BabyBitch tmr for breakfast. Cant wait, xoxo.

Another few more days, it'll be 2nd.
Another few more days, it'll be Christmas.
Another few more days, it'll be the last day of the year.

I cant wait for Year2010 to come. Its like going through so much shit in 2009, and I wanna life be a better one in 2010.

Time check : 11.47pm. I've finish stoning at this page.

2009-12-18T21:49:00.002+08:00

I'm loving my holidays, and I'm enjoying it to my fullest. Simply also because Bboy is clearing his leave officially from today onwards ;D Bboy gave me morning call like around 11odd. Prepared and nua around, till like 1 den I left home. Had a lil bit of prata before meeting Bboy. Lunched at some random kopitiam ,and headed back to station to nua around . Waited for Nicholas's phone call,and headed to some place to listen to his MLM talk. &I've concluded that MLM is like waste of time and all. Nuaed around , den after that headed back to Tampines for dinner. Bumped into Kailin&Janice (: Wanted to settle for KFC but damn crowded, so we decided to have chickenrice at some kopitiam. Lovely ;D Had seafood soup w rice(: Bboy sent me to the interchange and headed home.

I hope my rash get better please ;(

2009-12-18T02:07:00.003+08:00

I woke up ard like 11odd today, w the help of Bboy cause he gave me a mrng call ;D Nuaed around and like prepared to head out to TP to meet Shili to get some stuffs, den rushed back home. Pack a lil stuffs, and after that down to Aljunied to meet up w Bboy. Lunch at some random shop, chickenrice [: Cause I was craving for it, and after that we went nuaing around. Back to Tampines for dinner at Swensens cause I was craving for fish&chips. Lovely ;D Swensens MegaBurger sucks. HAHA. Over to watsons to get stuffs, and after that headed home.

Meeting Bboy tmr again ;D &Hes on leave from tomorrow onwards ;D
xoxo

I NEED A JOB BADLY.

2009-12-16T00:54:00.002+08:00

Today's awesome (: I woke up ard like 6 odd cause of a stupid nightmare ;( But KO'ed back to bed shortly HAHA. Woke up around like 12odd, and prepared. Headed to POSB to get some stuffs done, and finally Ive activated the card that I was supposed to activate before I fly off. Rushed down to Orchard to meet up w Bboy and I thought I'll be late but I was early instead. ahaas (: Met up at ION, den we went walking around like some lost idiots-.- Cause damn long din go town alr. Ggaahh. Over to Heeren for Jacks Place for late lunch/early dinner. Its nice ;D Bboy knows what I'll get for my meals. wahah, went walking ard Heeren up&down cause it was raining outside and we dont know how to get across without getting drenched. So we decided to cab to PlazaSing to catch a movie instead. Caught CoupleRetreat and that show is damn funny. I know, I'm slow. But I only watch movie that timing is closer to the timing that is available for us ahha. After the movie we were hungry, so headed to Tampines to eat Mac. Meet up w BabyBitch&Hafizah! Been donkey years since I last saw that woman (: Supper was great (: I like ;D Send Bboy to MRT and bussed home (:

Gonna shopping w BabyBitch, and if Bboy is free, he'll come join us ;D Tell me how can I hate my life right now though I'm jobless ;D

2009-12-14T14:02:00.002+08:00

Theres like so many things to update, but I'm so lazy to update. Ive got like more than 500 pictures to upload, and tag them on facebook, but I'm damn lazy. Weekends was good anyways. Reached back Singapore ard like Saturday morning, 2odd. Unpack my stuffs till close to 4am, then KO to bed. Woke up ard like 11 odd, prepared and headed down to ClarkeQuay for lunch at TCC. Din really eat much. Check in, and after that had a short nap. Trained to HarbourFront, had dinner at Carls Jr. Over to Sentosa to meet up w Thomas, and after that to meet up w the rest of them(: The night was happening (: Gotten to know so many nice earthlings, a lot of piggybacks, I love piggybacks ;D Totally worn out cause lack of sleep. Headed back to Tampines like ard 2odd to clear my reservations and after that lunched w BabyBitch at Bakerzin. The pizza not nice one lor ;x Back home ard like 4odd, and slept till like 9odd. Onlined for awhile, and KO at 1odd till this afternoon 1pm. Awesome shit or what. Cousin came over to my place and staying over for a week, means no peace ;x And another cousin came over w alcohol. We are going to have it like later in the afternoon, madness or what. Tell me about it.

I miss my BBoy, hes sleeping right now. ggahh